How are you coping today?

A bit grumpy today but working on turning that frown upside down

Miserable day,boring.

Feeling sleepy, but doing ok I guess.

Worked myself into an upset eve yesterday but started afresh today. Oh the magic of a new day!

Surprisingly well considering

I’m still having more crappy days then decent days. Today was pretty much a crappy day. I’m kind of concerned at how bad my paranoia has gotten these past couple weeks. I hate sitting in the car when my moms getting gas. My stomach drops whenever a car passes by at night. I’ve just become very paranoid. I don’t think I meet the criteria for schizophrenia. I don’t hallucinate or anything. I’m in touch with reality. Maybe paranoid personality disorder though. I get sick sometimes that the government is watching me and I don’t think that’s typical anxiety. I’ve never really mentioned it to any doctor before.

I felt miserable today,have been really tired and sleepy and felt like crap,haven't been able to do anything except sleep,and don't feel like doing anything either even though I have chores to do.

on sunday I ate some out of date chicken so ended up with a really bad stomach ache (and other side affects too) for days

well, I say days, I think it was about wednesday afternoon when I started feeling better

and of course I can't sleep, so recovery was extra slow, because I didn't have the rest

that aside, honestly no idea what i'm doing or where i'm going in life, complete standstill

I got up early 7am,it is 9.15am now,I still can't get going,I just want to sit and chill out,I have chores to do but won't get going with those just yet,I will probably wait until midday before I get going with the chores.Then when they are done I will just relax.I should cope with the day ok,just me on my own at home with the usual housework to do and the cats to look after!

up all night with bad back and imsomnia

showered this morning and had breakfast, but that's all

bad back and feel a bit icky... yippi. welcome to my life.

oh yeah did laundry too so everything's nice and clean

Well... It’s scary moving forward into the unknown. I’ve been reflecting on ghosts of relationships past. There’s the urge to go back in time and resuscitate one. There is not one viable anyway. And I now understand my emotional issues are what cause me that stupidity. So I won’t do anything like that. Smarter now.

no sleep, and dinner barely filling (I rate it a 2 out of 10)

today sort of a ground hog day- breakfast, laundry, **** all else

(no shower today though, one of those a week is enough)

Badly. Got up late, which is always a bad start. Then everything has been going wrong, the place I need to ring is closed today so I'll have to wait until monday, and might not even be able to sort it out then. So I'm stressed, but trying to calm down because there's nothing I can do about it right now. Can't even try to do anything about it until monday. There are other problems though.

I feel gutted.

all week, they have been advertising a comedian as "one of the best new comedians on tv"

so naturally I recorded the show to watch it today
and...

it was ****

he basically went on for 1 and a half hours about the government

bitterly disappointed

I can't believe it's all ready the afternoon though.

considering I've been up all night, and I spent half the morning trying to log in to this forum (yep, took me an hour) I'm glad it's almost evening

I hate days that just run slow

especially for someone like me who just doesn't have a life

24 hours in a day is way too many

I'm doing alright, I've been journaling and chewing gum to cope.

omg I miss journalling

I really don't know why I just restart it.. I still have my online journal open

but I know why, because I have nothing to say

Here are some ideas on what to say.

30 Journaling Prompts for Self-Reflection and Self-Discovery

currently I keep it open because it's a place for my old poetry

(dull school afternoons where I just wrote about my suffering)

but I will give that a read and see if it prompts me

my back is killing me today

litirally, I spent the morning picking up falling clothes from my wardrobe, and if their's one thing bad backs can't stand is leaning down to pick things up (it's ashame that my grabber can't pick up clothes)

that aside, I'm actually glad that today shouldn't be too stressfull

the last few days i've been planning for meetings, been anxious about meetings, (yesterday I had a really intense meeting), i just need a break from the anxiety

it's not over yet (because their's more meetings to come), but for now I can hopefully start to relax (even though my version of relaxing is sitting in a chair in terrible pain)

no anxiety though. that's the main thing

Good. I have a few days to myself to get these things done, and I've made a good start today (yesterday actually, but that was mostly planning and making lists).

I had a horrible day today.I overate and spoilt my diet ,I ate chocolate brownie with chocolate sauce and ice creme,apple juice and other things with sugar.My mood is very low and I am severely depressed.I feel afraid a lot of the time and lonely and I feel unloved.I can't stand this black hole I am in and it is an effort to do anything but sleep.I don't feel like doing anything and I am unmotivated.

I went out today to get some fish fingers for dinner.

also while I was out grabbed a copy of harry potter and the chamber of secrets (which to be fair, is now the only harry potter book I still have any interest in), I still like harry potter and the magical universe, but hmm, I guess I have a long way to go before I'm classed as a hard core fan

I also grabbed a shower today

taken it's toll though, because once again my back is killing me, I am nautious (probably from the extreme pain) and I'm out of breath

I was thinking earlier about how old I felt/ feel

I'm falling apart peace by peace

at least my physical body is

It was better today,I handled it ok,went to visit mum,then went to town centre and got hair dye and notebooks,bought mum face and hand creme for Mother's Day,I will also get her some flowers.I will visit her on sunday again and take it all up to her.I am going to see her this sunday and my sister will visit next sunday which is actual Mother's Day.

I'm sorry to hear that!