Feeling alone. People not understanding me.

Hey everyone.

I'll get straight to the point. I'm tired of people not understanding me. I'm tired of my parents not understanding me. I struggled with six to seven years of chronic anxiety and depression. I withdrew socially, was completely apathetic, had no hobbies, and was miserably depressed. I could not tell you how many times I cried every day my freshman and sophomore year of college (currently a junior) and felt completely hopeless and helpless. Did my parents offer any support? Yes. They told me to, "Cut it out." and thought I was doing it to myself on purpose and was in control of my emotions. I wanted to see a Psychiatrist, or a counselor, and my mother would proceed with the usual B.S., "You're not getting a pill!" I didn't want a pill. I wanted to not suffer anymore. I wanted someone to help me work through my problems. My dad would say (as an insult) "Maybe I should get you a ******* psychiatrist!"

I hate them. The dog was depressed yesterday, and they knew ASAP something was wrong. With me, they swept it under the rug. This really ticked me off. I also do not go out socially. I do not go out at all and my parents make me feel guilty of that, telling me I have no life and bla bla. Tell me I am 'wasting the best years of my life' to school. I do very well academically at college (straight-A student) and by means, these grades ARE my full-time job and they can't see that. I love school. I love to learn. But then again, I'm not partying on the weekend and getting wasted.

I just don't feel as though my parents support me. I don't feel as though they relate to me at all.

What about utilizing on campus counseling? I needed to in college, my mom would not have supported that choice. It wasn't billed through their insurance, so they didn't know.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Parents and family often don't support well, unfortunately. My dad was definitely one of those harmful subjects. My mom to an extent too, but at least she tried sometimes. They always think they know what's best for you and can't hear the truth.

As healingme4me suggested, could you perhaps talk to a school counselor about this?

Huge kudos to you for being able to do well in school. It's harder than people realize. I wasn't able to keep up with it and part of me really regrets not trying harder despite all I was going through. Don't let your family ruin this for you. Please try to keep going and once you're done with school and can get a good job because of it then you can make the choice to never see them again if they keep treating you horribly.

You have to pay for counseling in college? At our local university you can get for free even for non-students.

I didn't have to pay. It was a service available to students.

It is very common to feel this way.

Many people go through their childhood and early adult years feeling that their parents do not understand them and have no empathy for the problems that they deal with. Even when they do show empathy, they act very nonchalant about what you are going though. They may tell you, "others have it worse." But that only makes you feel even worse than how you felt even.

Just realize that there are tons of people who have and are going through this issue.

Is there an activity that you can do to feel better? Exercise, watch TV/YouTube, play a board game, or listen to music.

Just try to find something that can help you cope.