[BeesWaxCrayon]

I guess I've been stuffing it for so long that I can't hold it anymore. Anger scares me but I ask for help and only get pills. I try the hospital and they say they won't take me, even tho that's where T says to go. I get mad so fast nowdays that I even throw small stuff. I never did that much before. I don't want to be a scary person.
I tried DBT and it really p issed me off. Almost like it opened the lock that held the anger back.
I'm scared and don't know what to do.
I count to ten, I take deep breaths. I try to distract or remove myself from the situation. But I live here so I can't always control the place!
They say You need to use other coping mechanism s before you come here. Hello! I do! I don't want to say that I might hurt someone cuz likely I won't really even if it feels like it and I don't want that on my record. So they send me away.
What to do?
Bees

[mote.of.soul]

Wow, it's a bit of a situation for you all right, BeesWaxCrayon.

Have you tried physical exercise, gruelling walks, or running as a possible means to burning off the frustrations? Not only is it healthy anyway, but it could help to calm you emotionally too. A lot of people use running or jogging for that purpose. Stress relief.

[MickeyCheeky]

Do you think some sports could help? Also, if you feel the need to break something, perhaps you can buy a punching bag?

[BLUEDOVE]

Do try 'Mindfulness',and be aware of 'Priming',which is thinking bout people/situations/resentments etc., that stokes
the boiler up.And look up some books on self-esteem,so you
can be kinder to dear self--plus,look up book on "Self-Compassion",thats title of book by Kristin Neff,she has website too. I know the pain,so do work hard on this.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE

I agree with the advice to exercise and read. I have found that exercise and reading helps me a lot with any difficult emotion I am going through. Anger definitely needs a positive outlet.