[DarkMagician]

So my great aunt died three days ago and I'm not sad about it. I saw her a lot and thought she was cool and everything but I guess I just don't really care as much as everyone else. Maybe I just never really felt close to anyone because someone else I knew died in the past too. Because I can't say that I have ever actually felt close to someone. Maybe it's not a bad thing. You know that I just don't seem to care. Maybe I'm just unaffected by death. I've been wondering that. I worried that the rest of my family members might be upset with me if they knew how I thought but maybe they wouldn't. So I don't know. Maybe I just never felt close enough to anyone to the point where I would need to grieve for thier death or maybe I'm just unaffected by death. But the question that has been going through my mind is do I really care about anyone at all? Will I ever truly care about anyone? I just wonder if I'll ever feel that level of closeness to someone and I wonder if I'm a terrible person for not caring enough for other people.

I relate to this.

if it's someone I know who dies, I tend not to show any emotion (I almost am sat their thinking, this person is in a coma, they'll be fine soon), and the fact that they have died and I will no longer see them doesn't phase me (that, or I just can't grasp it)

but when it comes to celebrities, I'm a blubbering mess

I remember when michael jackson died, I felt like I'd lost a brother and cried for an entire year (I wouldn't play his music, hear his name, anything) and the same for robbin williams, carey fisher, and anyone else you can think of.

I even worry about some of my favorite celebrities dying

but no one I know in person. it is really strange

[MickeyCheeky]

FIRST OF ALL, I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR TERRIBLE AND AWFUL LOSS AND FOR THE DEATH OF YOUR GREAT AUNT!!!!! I TRULY, REALLY AM!!!!! Everyone Grieves their own way and Everyone has different levels of Empathy. I don't think you should feel ashamed for this. It is normal to feel attached to some people and not to others. Perhaps you just weren't particularly close with your Great Aunt? That is perfectly possible! However, if you see that this is a recurring problems in your Life, and if you feel like it is bothering you, then perhaps it would be useful to talk with a Therapist with ALL of this. You're not crazy and you're not doing anything wrong - but perhaps it would be good to analyze why you may be feeling this way all the time if that's the case, of course! In any case, that is YOUR decision. It is up to you. I hope you'll find the answers you're looking for one way or another! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @DarkMagician, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

[TishaBuv]

My father died when I was 12. It was shocking because I didn’t know he was that ill until they told me he died. They didn’t even tell me he was dying and give me the opportunity to say good bye! I was numb about his death and had no tears at his funeral or there ever after. I loved him. I certainly felt bad that he died. I don’t know why I had that cold reaction except for the fact it was so shocking because the truth was kept from me and it made me feel that I didn’t matter to him or to my family.

Then my grandparents and great aunt and uncle died when I was older. I loved them all and was very close with them all. Again, no tears for them ever, but was sad they passed and have fondly remembered them.

It’s not that I am without emotion. I have actually been diagnosed with emotional dysregulation disorder. I have cried a river over difficult relationships with people who are still living... my husband mostly.

I think about my dear departed very often and imagine they are talking to me and helping me through difficult situations with the living. Lol

There is another thread going on here now about someone who made a very callous remark about not caring about someone dying. Check it out. You may have touched on something where a person does feel love and loss but doesn’t express the sadness.

In your case, it might have to do with that you feel your great aunt was elderly and led a full life. I know that’s how I felt when my grandparents and their generation passed. My father was only 44, so that was a life taken too soon compared to those who lived long.

I don’t think you have cause for concern regarding your reaction IMHO.