How are you coping today? #2 1/2

I'm taking things slow and mindful this morning. Trying not to let my mind ruminate on anything.

I feel a little bit restless and anxious,also a kind of impatience.I am keen to leave the house and start my round of things to do today.
I am waiting until it's time for my appointment at the doctors to leave the house and ring a taxi.
I am having shooting pains in my right breast which worry me,I googled and found out its not likely to be cancer,which is reasuuring and I don't have any lumps in that
breast,so its probably nothing to worry about.Probably hormonal but the pain is like shooting pains and quite sharp it hurts a lot.
So this is upsetting me.
Another thing frustrating me I was told 5 days ago that a refund for a college course that I had to withdraw from had been actioned to go back into my bank account.It's been 5 working days since then which is how long it's supposed to take for the funds to go back into my bank account,but no sign of it and I am short of money in my bank account,and a direct debit went out early leaving me seriously short of spending money.So annoyed about that.

Also upsetting me today,I rang my mum yesterday at her care home to speak to her ,she was having conversations out loud to imaginary villagers that she thinks are still alive and surrounding her from 70 years ago,she was talking to them and replying in her own voice while the carer held the phone for her and she didn't even acknowledge I was on the phone speaking to her.Then I shouted at her to answer me and she di she said she couldn't talk to me that her friends were there and she wanted to talk to them could I leave her and ring back later.So I said goodbye to her but it upset me cos it show that us not visiting her regularly is making her dementia worse.

So lots of issues today that are upsetting me.But I will get on with my day.I am going to my favourite cafe later and watching a film at the cinema,hopefully that will help me feel better.

Noticed I've been apologizing a LOT lately for things that don't warrant an apology. I'm glad I notice.

Coping okay today. A couple of nice things happened that made me smile.

I’ve coped pretty good today considering I wasn’t feeling 100%

I'm not coping all that great. Some things I don't understand... like why am I so sensitive. I should stick with my gut instincts more. I will change my focus and consider positive things more.

Trying to start the day calm and maybe stay that way today.

Pretty good so far.

I was feeling lousy this morning. But, I took a rest for most of the day and feel great now. So. tomorrow, I will be ready to work again!

I am feeling quite down on myself today.

I’m stressed but I’ve been handling it well and I’ve been coping on my own without the help of emailing my therapist. Usually I send several throughout the week. This week I just sent a couple that were legit and ones she had been anticipating. I didn’t email her about anything silly.

I'm doing well today. I did some artwork this afternoon. It was relaxing. I used some pretty oranges, greens and blues in a California sunset piece.

That sounds beautiful!

I'm having a difficult time today (because of at least one of the voices/personalities.) I guess I'm coping, but not very well.

I had a good day. Work went well, I felt well, walked afterwards by the sea which felt good.

Battled a lot of negative thoughts but it got better as the day went on.

I'm a quasi powder keg.

i'm , , smashed , , and things i can't say on here

[basically not coping at all, not even in the slightest ]

late checking in today because I had an internet outage. (ugg they suck!)

thankfully, they arn't as bad as they used to be (where I lived before), but it still annoys me.

I also got a call from my care team today, I suppose it went well, though their was nothing really to say- the woman just wanted to reasure me " we've not forgotten you", of course, I realise that or you wouldn't have called. but yeah was still good to talk to someone, even if their was nothing really to say.

had a shopping delivery (mainly candy). looking forward to having sausages for my dinner

I think I'm coping well today. I've been cleaning up around my place. I even cooked today. I think later on I will doodle and color. That will be relaxing.

I am coping a lot better than I expected today. I had a good breakfast this morning, & was able to solve a couple of unanticipated problems, thank goodness.

I lost something that I really don’t want anyone else finding. It is small so I’m thinking maybe a cat took it. I have turned the place upside down and then cleaned every thing and I’ve looked under couches and beds and behind everything possible with a flashlight. It’s like it disappeared into thin air. I hope it did so no one will find it.

I'm not coping well this morning. I'm sad and I'm ruminating over stuff that doesn't even matter. I think I am caught in a negative loop. I must be worried about something but I'm not exactly sure what that is.

Not doing brilliantly. Tomorrow is another day.

Coping well. I ate a chocolate sundae and walked. The weather is cooler. I am doing ok. Stress is still there but I am able to handle it now.

I have been trying out yet another new radio station.

it is called " atlantic storm", and it's catchphrase is " music rashing in with the waves"

most of it so far has been 90's dance, which I honestly don't mind. it's not my favorite, but it's okay

today on who wants to be a milionaire, a guy won the jackpot. it's the only the 7th time it's been done in the show's history (I wonder if their is any milionaire in america?)

but the guy was amazing. reached question 15 and still had 3 lifelines

that about wraps up the series for another year, but they've all ready said they are looking for contestants for the new series.

not doing much in terms of being productive, I'v not even decided on dinner yet (I had mcdonalds yesterday, it really filled me up)

feel good just the same tired of the same feeling I guess