How are you coping today? #2 1/2

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I’m coping ok today but I think as a result of being so stressed these past few days I made myself physically sick. I don’t feel very good right now. This isn’t the first time this has happened either. I think my Pdoc doctor getting frustrated yesterday kind of did it for me.

i'm basically NOT - haven't been for a while now

I am pretty good because I finally slept.

I'm coping fine today. I was hanging out with my friend and didn't really feel up to it, plus it's cold out, and they understood.

While visiting my mother in her nursing home, I asked the recreational therapist to give me information about how she got her license. Definitely a career I could see myself doing with pediatrics (helping kids build social skills). The degree program isn't in my city so I'd have to move a few hours away which is not ideal. I'd have to see if I could get my Dislocated Worker to approve a tuition grant vs. financial aid, for the courses I'd need to take to get my license. The rec. therapist gave me her contact info so I will touch base with her again after Christmas. The Masters program I'm in now has zero practical application for me since I'm not in a corporate career like 99% of my classmates. So, let's see what happens. May not lead anywhere but it may.

I feel really bad today. I was yelled at by a district manager and stores manager who screw up on my order and I end up being rip off at my favorite store and when I came home I was yelled at by my brother because my sister was very nosy and blab my business to our brother who call !e horrible names. I felt like I was being gang up on all day.

I think that stress is causing me physical health problem as well! So I understand how you feel.

I'm having a lot of anxiety visiting my parents around food and weight loss right now. I have a lot of food related anxiety and they greatly exacerbate it because they will never help me out by at least planning WHEN we will eat dinner. My meals are very regulated and it's necessary for me to do so to manage my PTSD and anxiety - since I grew up with starvation and then an eating disorder. I have explained this to them, and they do try to accommodate me but usually it's when I'm on my last straw and have to say very forcefully, WE HAVE TO EAT NOW. I know I can eat without them, of course, and sometimes I do, but I really like to eat as a family. As usual, it's also a problem of the fact that neither of them has any metabolism. I am active and go running many days of the week, and my metabolism is active. I asked my mom what kind of exercise she's getting and she said she's getting about 3000 steps a day. That's the equivalent of nothing. That's walking around the house to get dressed and make breakfast, walking to the bathroom at work, and walking to and from the car. I'm not knocking her, I'm just saying, she doesn't get very hungry because she doesn't do anything that would make her hungry. And then the problem is that they snack between meals and I do not. It doesn't work for managing my weight and my PTSD/anxiety to snack like they do. I just wish they would respect this boundary a little more because they have seen me have panic attacks before when we are HOURS late to having a meal because they screw around getting ready or whatever.

Anyways: I'm feeling anxious.

yesterday I watched the christmas bunny.

I get to watch this film once a year (just once), and yesterday was the day.

it is my favorite christmas movie, but I got quite emotional over it (I always do, it's an emotional movie) but I did enjoy it. it's still really good even after all these years.

it is now almost christmas. despite being really depressed and in a lot of pain (mainly my back), I am reallyooking forward to it- well that's a bit of a lie, I am looking forward to watching christmas carol on christmas day, more than the actual holiday itself, part of me just wants it to be over (the part of me that realises that the only person I'll be talking to on christmas day is myself)

hope you all have a good christmas

I feel great!! Happy Holidays to all!! I am stable and sleep well. I am eating, may be too much. However, I feel good about myself and am happy. Life is not bad and looks good from my perspective.

For some reason I'm excessively triggered by my mom's behavior right now. I'm going to try to discuss it with her tomorrow, and frame it like I'm trying to enlist her help to help me manage my ptsd right now. She thrives on the caregiver role so that should be a good tactic to get her to listen to me and to actually do what I'm asking her to do, which isnt anything difficult except tell me what the plans are, lol. I dont even care what they are I just need to know what they are so I can plan accordingly.

Today I'm coping okay and taking it easy. So far I've gotten ready for the day and watched a movie.

Next I will do some chores around the house to keep myself occupied. Not too much is going on right now, but I always try to have an activity to do each day.

I may feel low tonight but I coped well today.I got chores done,dust,polish,hoover,put bins out,did laundry and made dinner.So that is good coping well really!

Horribly today. I'm trying to watch movie that make me feel better.

I’m coping ok today. Although this whole changing to winter thing plus the new med has me messed up. 6PM feels like 9 so I go to bed at 6 and wake up at 3. For some reason I never adjusted to the time change either.

I feel tired, I got woke up through the night and then up at 5am for work. Work is retail so VERY busy today and had to stay back - I am usually a pretty relaxed/reliable/willing employee but I found myself getting more and more worn as the shift dragged on, plus I didn't get my full break which I was docked for, which is not a massive deal but rankled me. Also one of my colleagues was allowed to leave on time so it didn't feel fair.

I definitely was not the best version of myself today and that's putting it mildly.

I feel mostly nothing.

I coped ok went to the bank and did my xmas food shop,it took me an hour and a half got most of what I wanted.The food store put it's prices up for xmas to rip us off....it does that every year.I usually buy a packet of 4 custard tarts for one pound..they packaged them in packs of two and charging a pound.Rip off Britain.No shame.

I think I mostly coped okay today. I forced myself to talk to some people because I was feeling lonely and that kind of helped but now it's night and I'm by myself and feeling lonely again. I'm listening to music and it also helps a little but overall I feel sad and like I want to sleep for a year.

Doing better. I took a moment and explained to my mom about my eating disorder and how her behavior/ attitude is kind of setting me off and that I dont mean to be irritable with her and that I dont mean to direct it towards her. I have anxiety when I dont know when meal times will be and when I ask her and she ignores me and I keep asking her and she treats it like a joke and dismisses me, it makes me more anxious. And I just need to know so I can manage my disorder. So anyways, I think that helped her understand I'm not trying to be controlling about mealtimes, I just need to know for my anxiety.

my christmas day wasn't anything to really write home about.

I was alone for all of it, I didn't get what I wanted (which was a given even before the day had started, I just didn't want to admit it), plus: my turkey dinner was less than average

I am still feeling depressed today though, despite taking down the christmas tree. I don't know why it's such a big thing for me... when I take down the tree I get so emotional

plus side to christmas is that I wasn't in much pain

sat quite comfortably in my chair yesterday watching the muppet christmas carol

I did what I could given the level of pain I was in

I feel horrible because I'm losing all of my online friend.

I was lonely today but I coped ok....no choice but to take each day as it comes
and get through it...….it hurts though cos I had this medium email me about 9 times in the last ten days.
Each one of her emails says I need to have her perform a ritual for me to find low and make a lot of money and have a
happy future, if I don't pay her thirty pounds to perform this ritual she says I will be on a path of bad fortune, struggle and doom and
extreme poverty. I am furious she is trying to scare me into paying her money. I put up with 9 emails saying this same thing in different manipulative ways telling me we have a psychic connection and she is in touch with my helpers in the spirit world blah blah blah and I am so angry I unsubscribed from her emails.
Isn't it a cheek she must send the same emails to about a thousand people but she tries to make them sound personalised.
It is like she is saying pay me and Ill cast a spell to bring you good fortune don't pay me and I'll curse you.

I wouldn't pay her anyway, I do think spells and rituals work but I believe in God and he tells us not to mess with those things and I don't think it's safe and I think it is devils work.