How are you coping today? #3

I'm coping well. I stayed busy with fun activities and when I didn't feel well, I took a nap. I've had 3 naps so far. I feel good this evening. I might play some games.

Focusing on work

Very sad though still tough, but fighting the battles. One by one.

Yesterday afternoon was tough. The criticism of someone in my life had me reacting to it with criticism and negativity. It made me feel depressed and that I was practicing the same behaviors which I abhor. It did make them back off though but I felt dragged down by it. I usually cope by detachment which does affect how well I respond to each comment but I also have to be careful how I respond--most of my responses are rarely good enough. So I usually talk much less now. I want to talk less and just do things instead (work). I need to stop thinking about this relationship. Overthinking it isn't good. I will try to leave yesterday's interaction behind. It is a new day!

I am so annoyed and triggered right now.

I just saw the name of my



when are people going to learn that he is dead and writing his name isn't going to change that fact.

ugg!

if someone is dead, then you don't keep bringing it up. case closed

I'm not very motivated this morning. I have to go through my morning routine and start on some chores. I'm just not in the mood. But I will try to put one foot in front of the other.

overeating.

I'm a ****ing hazard to myself

Feeling renewed hope. My fears that he is struggling have come to light and are reality. Call it mother’s intuition and the refusal to believe he would have been so hurtful if not struggling himself. I hope it is only growing pains and all will resolve well. I am so thankful for the way this is starting to heal for us!

Today has been difficult. But....(?)

I’m coping pretty well. I just got hit with a lot of stuff an hour ago that I’m trying to process. Plus I’m still thinking about the usual things. It will pass I know it. My mom said it was kind of awkward that I was friends with all the women in their 60’s-90’s several years ago at a volunteer job. I felt like they really did like me and if they found it weird they never said anything. I just find talking to older people a lot easier. Even at work I’d talk to the older coworkers mainly and I’d get frustrated by the people my own age who did nothing but make jokes behind peoples back and talk about substances. But now when I go back to work it may be completely the other way around.

Older ppl rock. And when I was in my 20s I felt that way about my peers too.

One of my best friends is in her late 70s. I'm in my early 40s, I met her in my mid 30s. People in their 3rd quarter of life can be vivacious, fun, and hilarious sense of humor. They also have a lot of knowledge. (And my friend can drink me under the table.)

I'm sure your friends who are older really do like you.

I'm having a difficult time. Sleep usually resets me. But I still feel depressed after several hours of trying to sleep.

Morning is a period of reflection, reading and viewing uplifting information, planning and posting on here for me. Saw this Youtube video: . In it, she speaks about Benjamin Franklin's 13 virtues. I really admire Benjamin Franklin, he accomplished so many good things in his life. His 13 virtues are worthy goals; they are: temperance, silence, order, resolution, frugality, industry, sincerity, justice, moderation, cleanliness, tranquility, chastity and humility. I her idea (which comes from Franklin) of focusing on three resolutions (and mine all come back to one of the thirteen virtues) and then reflecting on whether or not I accomplished it at the end of the day. I already focus on what I want to accomplish during the day in the morning but tying those goals to a virtue is a good way to think about it. Looking back on my day at the end of the day to think about my accomplishments/if I was virtuous is not a daily habit but I will try it. I currently read every evening before I go to bed but I can also look at my daily calendar/planner (will write at least one resolution it for the day) and evaluate if I kept it. I also find the short Derek Prince videos very uplifting. This one ties in with having daily goals (like saying only encouraging things to others, not snacking between meals, etc.):

...better than I expected. (allow to stay there)

I think that's a little judgemental of your mom.

I am sure they did like you. It would be strange if we only mixed with people our own age our whole lives. It would be kind of narrow.

One of my closest friends is 82, I am in my 40s, we just get along really well and have lots in common although we've had very different life experiences. I also have a young friend with young children (my family is grown now) who I really like and admire.

I think you should be friends with whoever you like!

I am having a weird headache today, probably stress induced. I am worrying like always about a few things in my life, otherwise i am okay, i guess.

Coping fine I think. Just really tired.

I saw a doctor today and I'm glad I did.

It's sunny here today.

At home eating now. I was starving. And I took a shower.

My mom is the queen of judgement. It can get annoying at times although I do it too sometimes but not the way she does.

I’m doing ok today. I got coffee. I went to return something. My moods and anxiety were fine even with the change in plans this weekend. I don’t think I really want go anyways. So next weekend will be better since it will be warmer. It feels like a Friday though and it’s driving me a bit off. I’m pretty sure it’s because I had therapy on Monday and I used to have it on Tuesdays. I have to try to figure out if I want to tell the new one some stuff.

Bleurgh today, I exercised this morning but felt fatigued afterwards and had all the Neuro symptoms of migraine except the headache, so I slept it off. I still have the allodynia though.

Luckily it was my day off.

I feel stressed and upset today. I'm not coping very well. I'm trying to practice mindfulness but I keep getting distracted with upsetting thoughts.

I took one of my meds at 10:30 last night to help me fall asleep. So I was pretty anxious this morning. I took half of my night dose 20 minutes ago. I’m hoping to get my anxiety under control and then take the other half tonight and hopefully be back into a normal schedule with the med tomorrow. But I also think I OD on laxatives. Which are still not helping the situation. But I feel sick to my stomach right now and I’m also getting tired from the Geodon I just took. So I’ll probably need to take a nap or lie down.

I wish I could power nap for 15 minutes without meds but I seem to only be able to do that when it gets warmer out.