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I was doing great for a number of hours and now I just feel crappy and I feel like I have to put on this happy face because its Easter and I have to wait to eat dinner instead of just eating whatever whenever I feel like it. And I know its going to be super late because dinner is always late when my sister is over. And I just can't ****ing eat dinner after a certain time or I won't eat at all. And I know that sounds super childish but I have this like fear or aversion or OCD or something thats going on where I can only eat during certain time frames and its been getting really intense lately and its really affecting my quality of life and my physical health as well since most of the time if dinner is too late I just say eff it and eat crackers instead.
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#227
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My med management has gotten a lot better these couple days and I can feel my sleep improving as well. But that just makes my physical issues more obvious. Things are tough physically especially at this moment. My tylenol wore off so I just took some more 15 minutes ago. I'm hoping it kicks in. I ate a plain hot dog because I was hungry and hadn't eaten much all day and I'm kind of feeling it now. If I don't eat I'm fine. But its not like I just can't eat.
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#228
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My pain and anxiety are ok today. I'm still not very hungry but I don't feel sick after I do eat. I just feel a little bit tired today mainly. I ate 2 lunchables but the mozzerella in my cheese pizza one went flying because the top was hard to open. I just stared at all that cheese on my bed feeling a bit defeated since I needed those calories. I salvaged what I could of the cheese and it was ok. So far I havent needed any tylenol, my one new med is working. I went out to a couple stores without an issue and even took my time to browse the freezer section looking for something specfic. Normally I am so antsy I want to be in and out. But yeah today wasn't bad.
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#229
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I'm doing good today. I got a lot done today with little anxiety and I did a lot of stuff that would have been hard for me to do even a week ago. I am at this moment a bit concerned I'm getting my moms cold just based on this weird feeling I have in my throat that feels like it could be the start of a sore throat. Thats what my mom had too at first. I'm just trying not to panic right now. But overall today was pretty good physical and mental health wise.
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#230
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I'm trying today but I woke up really anxious so my med management has been kinda screwy. I also didn't balance my calories out well and I had a lot of food that wasn't really good. And I had a couple full calorie drinks. So now I don't have much calories left for dinner and I'm just headachy and tired in general and I don't know if I'm getting what my mom has or if its just a contiunation of the stuff I had earlier this week. I'm also having body image issues and I can't tell if the stuff I'm seeing is legit there or not. I'm losing weight but not at the rate I'd like to and I just feel like I have a lot more to lose and I'm already at a pretty averarge weight for someone my height. Honestly sometimes I just feel burned out from doing my shot every 1.5 weeks and I feel like going to every week is a good idea mental health wise.
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#231
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I been trying to keep myself busy to distract myself from how I had been feeling lately. I am emotionally numb.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#233
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:hug: :grouphug: :yourock: You doing amazingly well. It a great way to have a positive attitude.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#235
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I'm doing good. I decided to go back to the full dose doing once a week of my injections instead of the split dose I was on before every 1.5 weeks. Yesterday was miserable so I contacted my doctor yesterday afternoon and once I got the ok around 5 I went ahead right away with the shot. I woke up this morning and felt an an almost huge difference right away with my moods. The only issue is I have been super hungry all day so I've been binge watching TV and drinking flavored iced teas to distract myself from my hunger. I've still been eating though. But its nice not to have an insane amount of anxiety or moodniess.
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#236
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pretty much the same as any other day
I'm not. it's been so long now I forgot what it feels like to cope.. I just finished shouting at an online form for not letting me fill it in |
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#237
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I'm not coping very well & not posting like I want.
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#238
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Drinking some water and writing some notes out to myself about what I think of certain things.
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I was doing ok all day but I kinda did something I shouldnt have but I didn't actually do it yet. I ordered something I probably shouldnt have but its coming tommorow so I can't use it anyways for another week or so. But anyways I drank a protein drink and it currently isn't agreeing with me and I'm wondering if those are part of why my stomach gets upset a lot. I don't know if they interact with meds at all.
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#241
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I'm okay. Eating dinner with my parents. Earlier I felt quite worried about some things. I tried coping by doing a bunch of different things. It was also really warm out today, which I think made me feel pretty crappy. I'm feeling better-ish now, the car AC and shade helped. So did some problem solving and a little communication.
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#242
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I’m doing okay. I have some justified trepidation about what’s going on in my workplace but what will be will be and I’m not a decision maker so I have zero influence.
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#243
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Thinking of you - hoping you can post like you want soon.
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#244
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I'm doing a little bit better today.
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#245
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I have nothing good to say about today
I wish their was a skip button on my life. not doing anything or have nothing on? skip to a time when you do! |
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#246
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though in my case... well that will be never
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#247
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I like the idea though. I hope your tomorrow is a day you'd want to skip to.
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#248
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Possible trigger:
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka Last edited by bluekoi; Apr 26, 2022 at 08:14 PM. Reason: Administrative edit. |
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#249
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#250
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I've just spent another night awake. woo
and lost half my bracelet on the floor- but my back hurts too much to lean down to get it, so it can ****ing stay their ugg fibro |
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