How are you coping today? #6

I'm still just sleeping a ton and not eating much today. It still doesn't feel mental health related though. My moods and anxiety were fine for the most part.

i'm maybe losing grip on reality

I been working on my emotions lately to feel better.

I had a nice catch up with a friend today who gave me a helpful perspective on a few things, that helped me a lot.

I called two of my friends today.

I spent a lot of time crying today, I feel lost to be honest. It's been a weird couple of weeks. I did some coping skills though like meditating, listening to music, using coping statements, self-soothe etc. Also my anxiety increased because I started a new med and I always worry my meds will kill me especially when I start new ones.

i had an emotionally negligent childhood. i have struggled my whole life because of that. there is an emptiness inside which only the love for animals can fill. i wish i could be more comfortable in my own skin. i usually put up a facade because i am afraid i will be rejected if i am myself. i have gone through so much. most people have no idea.

I shut down emotionally to avoid anymore emotional pain

I went to Dollar Tree, and I do not know if it's coping or not but I spent about 40 dollars. I wanted for a little today to do all my bath and makeup from them. I am once more a little delusional, especially since I made the New Year's resolution to try to do things with more creativity and spontaneity (including my makeup, clothes, beauty, and even actions and words). I totally almost made a decision that put the damper on my entire year. IF I did this feat it would be a really sour point in my life and so I cannot say that I want Dollar Tree to do my beauty. I must have imagined it more than I had teeth.

I been trying to figure out how I am going to work on my new year resolution this year and just be happy instead of feeling depressed.

Today is very bad, i wish I could rewind all this mess. Years and years of nonsense and being (literally) poor and they still have the courage to behave in an abusing way

Today I had a relaxing day, I snuggled up into a soft blanket and slept, then I read for a while which did me the world of good.

I wish that I knew how to relax

It’s not always easy I know, my mind plays on a loop some days, reading helps me, if I can get to a point of focus.

I'm feeling disappointed. None of my FB friends/family wished me a happy birthday. Hits me hard b/c while I'm far from perfect, I'm not a jerk. Why are these people FB friends with me anyway.

Happy birthday

Sometimes random people add others on facebook, even when they don't know each other in real life

Thanks willow. 90% of my FB friends know me from real life. I guess I could view this as evidence of what they really think of me. Which is: not at all.

Onward and upward. I won't prioritize them in my life anymore. That's certain.

Happy birthday! Fb is just rubbish.

Sounds amazing

Perhaps it is social anxiety? That is all a person can do.

God bless you, Gasplessy. I hope things start to feel easier soon.

I am waiting for my package from Old Navy, it seems like the longest wait in the world. I bought some brown pants and some thong underwear and a babydoll spaghetti strap shirt.

I don’t know why I’m not doing so well today, I feel like I had to try hard today for a good bit of it, we had a video chat with friends abroad I really like but I find video chats stressful for some reason so there’s that. I don’t know but I’ll plough on.

Doing ok. Have a eye appointment this afternoon so forced myself into the shower this morning. My hair is almost dry. Need to get the dishes washed. Then I’m caught up on everything. I’m down a level but pushing myself.

The new thread is here: How are you coping today? #7