How are you coping today? #6

I'm choosing to listen to the radio instead of having iTunes at all anymore on my non-Apple computer. Just letting them do it all for me. I know, I know how hard can listening to music be? I must say that it's a hardship for some people. It helps to have less to do.

I was super hungry from 10-1 because I took a melatonin last night that was not my normal kind. And I was also sort of crabby as a result. I was thinking of eating out but didn't feel like dealing with crowds. I then was thinking of getting something from Wendys. But their stuff looked like heart attacks on buns which is a real concern for me. So I ate some lunch meat and a yogurt and the hunger went away. I watched TV which helped with my anxiety and I then lost it in a type of way I'm not comfortable with. I took a zofran for some nausea I have and I'm trying to relax but now I'm not even in the mood for london broil let alone the triple cheeseburger I wanted at noon.

I been trying to keep myself busy

I ate! Yay me! AND it was a healthy eating session. I was not bad or too little or snacks. A Double Cheeseburger and Medium Fries (with a medium soda).

I put my silly and stupid desire to order my iPad and iPhone around to rest. Now - They are the way I want them to be.

I did not get my hair cut with my Mom this time, so it will be long and beautiful sometime. In reality, I prefer my hair long.

I decided to skip the coffee. I think I will live another day.


I hope there will be a change in me. Some semblance of reality is due to appear because I am coping with this stuff instead of hindering progress or not even acknowledging a way to deal with it.

I'm just in general worn out and very tired today and it started when I woke up and I hope I'm not coming down with something. Or worse. Something more wrong with my bloodwork. It was hard controlling my visible emotions and thats not normal for me. I'm often a pretty cheerful person around my mom but today I was cranky and not in the mood for anything.

I surprised myself today & got determined & went to the store & got things I needed.

Feel as if I’m barely treading water and then several big waves come crashing at me just as I’m headed back to shore, and occasionally think I see a shark or two so swim like crazy to the shore. It was just a busy day at work and a Monday, as well took one day off, and feels like took three days off.

Ran first 5k in a while and almost threw up on the spot, mixture of being unfit and stopping beside the small farm at the end of our road - the smell was ripe. I’m trying to think positively about rebuilding fitness but feeling so unfit and honestly not always making a healthy choice about food either.

I slept until about 12:00pm. It was such a good thing because I was hardly sleeping!

I’m feeling anxious about a few things but I did some cleaning jobs, ironing, cooked a meal and made a cake for some friends so thinking about it I’ve actually coped okay. I just need to remind myself.

not coping well.

I did decently I think. I was a bit crabby but I don't think it was 100% my fault. I think I was assertive in therapy. I know It was a productive session at least. I took a nap when I started to feel faded and when I woke up I felt much better. My anxiety was under control. So if I were to rate on how I coped today I'd give it a 7.8/10.

Hang on in there Breaking Dawn, we’re thinking of you.

Thank you!

so far no sleep and extreme pain while getting ready for the day

no plans for the day, and rainy weather- so nothing looks too good

I feel about 100

in a hell of a lot of pain

I thought last night I would have definte answers on how to change my legal name. Like I thought I'd be at the courthouse today or tommorow and my name would be legally changed. But the lawyer is still working it out. I also thought I'd have definte news about when I can go back on my injections. I thought I'd be able to start them again possibly today. But my doctor still wants to hear what this most recent blood test result is like and then he may ask for a second one. So at this point I'm not sure when anything is happening but its not going to be as quick as I was thinking.

feeling quite anxious

basically over the fact I have 2 coppies of the same dvd, and finding it hard to throw one of them away

then finding it weird that I have 2 coppies even to begin with

I am coping by being here, reading, posting, & playing games here.

Trying to make some goals. I decided to try to be more exact about what I want on my phone and tablet. I'm trying to be a little more complete in this respect.

Today wasn't good, but I seem to be doing a bit better at the moment.

I have coped one more time the way of 'buying things'. I am sure this is a staple. AND it was the usually bath and beauty products and things like that. I wish Goodwill and the DAV etc would do trade for buying their items. (But then it would not work so fast). I wish I knew what animal eyes looked like. How they look. Then I could just switch between eye sets and know what all them looked out at the world like. Especially my little Jasper and Luna. They're so special.

I'm really struggling with med resistant anxiety today. Everything was fine until I took my morning meds with our filtered fridge tap water. After my second covid shot I had a bad psych reaction and among other things developed an intolerance to our drinking water. After my doctor raised a med of mine where I needed to be drinking a lot of water the issue became more obvioius and I finally switched to bottled water about a month ago. And I have not had much issue with anxiety since making the switch. And for sure not like this. So I am not sure why I decided to drink the fridge water instead of getting a bottle of water. But I've been paying for it all day. But I mean, at least I don't have covid....

I’m getting by on a sleep deficit but not too bad considering. I need to chill out and just sleep though, I just worry I’ll sleep in.

Some not too great news from work but what will be will be.

I went to Dollar General today, bought Acne Wash, a dress, two cajun mixes, and two zero sugar sodas. I believe that it was one thing I did today to help myself cope. I'm glad I quit cigarettes because there was a temptation and I overcame it. The whole experience would have been better if I had skipped on the sodas and bought coconut water. I should have looked at the exercise tools so that I can go ahead and get going with trying to lose weight really good. But it would have been overdoing it.


Another thing I did to cope with my Schizoaffective disorder was journal a little. I prayed some Askances of my guardian angel.