[Sohappy]

It took me a long time to figure out how to get a job in my old field. I have to fake confidence. I achieved

I am scared and frightened all the time.

I know to get anywhere, people don't want to know i have problems.

I made a mistake sharing and it cost me friendships or former people I used to know.

I have very few people who accept me and know my struggles but
sometimes i smile and laugh out of nervousness but I don't like it when they don't take me seriously.

The way i see it, life is an acting game for me to get anywhere. Many people are not going to accept me.

Who are the people you are sharing this information with, and in what context?

If your anxiety affects your job performance, then it makes sense to share about this only with your boss and immediate team mates so they can be understanding and accommodate you.

If not, then it is not appropriate to share this information at a workplace.

In U.S., the workplaces must accommodate disabilities. If this is the case in Canada, is there a way to get a note from a therapist? This way, if they reject you, you may be able to prove discrimination on their part.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting SO MUCH, Sohappy I agree with ennie that perhaps you may want to disclose your MI to your Boss if you feel like it's affecting your work performance. You have EVERY RIGHT to get accomodations to put you on the same palying field of your colleauges. As for what you wrote, I can relate. It's so hard to fake and it gets tiring after a while My hope is that you'll meet some people with whom you'll feel comfortable with and with whom you will be able to freely share what's on your mind. While you wait for those people just know that we understand you here on PC. Please NEVER give up Keep fighting! You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! YOU KNOW THAT'S TRUE! KEEP ROCKING! We'll ALWAYS care about you! THAT'S A PROMISE! KEEP ROCKING! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Sohappy, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you!

[Sohappy]

Thanks you both ennis and mickeycheeky for the kind support, hugs and words. I appreciate your sympathies. I am new here and don't know how to reply individually...

I am new at my job. I am not yet permanent, so I cannot share with them.

If there is ever any discrimination, I cannot prove it. I lost my previous job that i told them about my depression and anxieties. They had no sympathies for me. They fired me.

I don't have anything i want to share with my current job but i just wish i didn't get so triggered and feel trapped at times.

[Zevvy]

Originally Posted by Sohappy

If there is ever any discrimination, I cannot prove it. I lost my previous job that i told them about my depression and anxieties. They had no sympathies for me. They fired me.

I don't have anything i want to share with my current job but i just wish i didn't get so triggered and feel trapped at times.

That's so awful, SoHappy! I'm so sorry that happened to you.

Is there anyone else you can talk to about your depression and anxiety? Are you seeing a therapist?

Originally Posted by Sohappy

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The way i see it, life is an acting game for me to get anywhere. ...

I see it the same. I have struggled with this. Faking is a huge part of life. Everything is fake. Life is a play. Everyone puts a mask and take a role that isn't them.

[Sohappy]

Originally Posted by Zevvy

That's so awful, SoHappy! I'm so sorry that happened to you.

Is there anyone else you can talk to about your depression and anxiety? Are you seeing a therapist?

I am not seeing a therapist. I procrastinated seeing one because I don't have enough savings. I am worried that I don't know how long my job will last. I keep feeling scared that something might bad happen because nothing ever works out for me.

[Sohappy]

Originally Posted by Nxious

I see it the same. I have struggled with this. Faking is a huge part of life. Everything is fake. Life is a play. Everyone puts a mask and take a role that isn't them.

Yes, it's true. But I don't necessarily want people to know if i have problems if it means it will have a negative effect on me, such as costing my job or people avoid me if they think I am a downer.

It frightens me. I have to learn how to be better at faking it just to be able to keep what I have but I feel so lonely without any close relationships.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Sohappy

Yes, it's true. But I don't necessarily want people to know if i have problems if it means it will have a negative effect on me, such as costing my job or people avoid me if they think I am a downer.

It frightens me. I have to learn how to be better at faking it just to be able to keep what I have but I feel so lonely without any close relationships.

It's true, a lot of people are fake, and ''fake it'' but not everyone. I hope you find these forums supportive, it's a safe place to vent here.

[Sohappy]

I know people can't tell how I am just struggling on the inside and I have to put on a smile on the outside. It gets tiring. I don't want to leave the house. Everything is too hard.

[zapatoes]

Originally Posted by Sohappy

I know people can't tell how I am just struggling on the inside and I have to put on a smile on the outside. It gets tiring. I don't want to leave the house. Everything is too hard.

Yes can really relate to this “smiling on the outside and crying on the inside.”

Hope things get better!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Sohappy

It took me a long time to figure out how to get a job in my old field. I have to fake confidence. I achieved

I am scared and frightened all the time.

I know to get anywhere, people don't want to know i have problems.

I made a mistake sharing and it cost me friendships or former people I used to know.

I have very few people who accept me and know my struggles but
sometimes i smile and laugh out of nervousness but I don't like it when they don't take me seriously.

The way i see it, life is an acting game for me to get anywhere. Many people are not going to accept me.

I understand how you feel. I feel like this all the time.