I Snapped

I’m sorry, but people are driving me up a ****ing tree today. I’m so tired of getting nothing but excuses and placations. Call a spade a ****ing spade, *******it. Why should I help people like that? I’m sick of the whining, the comlaining, and the pity parties. I’m sick of people nearest and dearest to me saying they’ll “try” to get better and then they don’t do **** but continue to complain about their problems. In my opinion, “try” is a dirty word. I’m sick of guys who complain that girls don’t date them because they are nice guys and then, the more I get to know them, it becomes clear that there are very definite reasons girls won’t date them that have absolutely nothing to do with them being “nice.” Am I perfect? **** NO. I’m a big fat ***** with rage issues and a **** ton of baggage. I own that and I work on it daily. And I’m unashamedly honest. But sometimes, I have one of those days where I just can’t. I can’t take one more excuse. I can’t take any more ********. I can’t take any more. I can’t keep the smiley face mask on any longer. I get that I come on strong, I get that my words come out harsh sometimes. That doesn’t necessarily mean I don’t care (although admittedly, sometimes it does). But I am only human. And incidentally, I know I’m being vague as ****. It’s because honestly, I don’t want to relive the fight I had with members of my family today. Because I love them and I am broken-hearted that I lost my temper this afternoon. I know I have a bad temper. I just wish this phone conversation had never happened.

Im really sorry your day has not gone as well as you had hoped

I always try and question why people behave or act the way they do. Other peoples behaviour can be very...frustrating. But when I try to empathise with them, it helps me potentially see things from their point of view.
Its difficult to do in the moment, but it really helps me. Maybe trying that would help you? I dont know, its just a suggestion.

Saying that, we all have bad days and we all have days when we've had enough, we're only human.

I think the anger issue is what has to be looked at here. Sometimes we hold so much inside.
We’re afraid to tell people how we REALLY feel and that just builds up like a volcano. When
you don’t , or can’t freely express yourself, I believe, the anger turns inward. It can manifest
itself in many different ways. All in all though , without getting too deep into it here , this emotion
can be VERY destructive. Find a way to defuse this anger.