How are you coping today? #7

Back to my organizing. Had a walk with the dogs and feeling a bit better. I really want to get back to my music listening, which always makes me feel better, but of late has been pretty sparse.

I've been doing well all day by using distraction. Now that the TV is off I am starting to feel things again. Physical things though. Mental health wise I've been good since going back on the valium.

I did get a bit annoyed at my mom but I do feel like shes being a bit silly and kinda reckless so I don't really feel like I was in the wrong.

I told my therapist today that I am in a better place then I was this time last year, which is very true but it seems every year at this time its pretty misereable. Either mood wise or weather wise. I'm coping ok though.

By playing loud thunder to block out the sound of a barking dog.

Coping fine, work has been just fine despite my worries about the staffing with our mini covid wave.

I was doing crappy this morning and early afternoon. Now I feel ok. Normally its the other way around. I think getting my weekly shot may have something to do with it. I'm not disapointed about my birthday and the weather anymore. I am used to it now. I am just glad I am way more stable then I was last year at this time.

I coped well today. I didn't do anything. There wasn't anything I could do anyways. But I was in good spirits about things and I got a couple things ordered and a few freebies in some emails. I didn't stress about much. I have a slight cold but I don't feel sick. My weight contiunes to go down and my appetite continues to stay low. I am eating healthier so I'm wondering if thats part of the reason my mood has increased. My therapist and I made a food log a couple of weeks ago and we have been discussing it in our sessions and its been helpful. Tommorow I can get out and do a couple things.

Ugh. My neighbor is spraying perfume again. I can smell it in my apt. She's also been yelling. And its none of my business of course, it just distracted me from reading.

Yesterday I used my skills like a champion, for the win!

Speaking of champions, I want to watch the Olympics.

I tried my best but some things were a bit out of my control. My moods were ok. My anxiety was a mess. My depression was off and on. My self esteem and self worth have been very good lately after my weight loss and appetite reduction. I have not felt the best physically though.

Basically I'm just trying to control what I can.

I'm doing ok. I have lots of time on my hands now but need to move out of here. Argh! So, I need to pack and do a lot of other things. Well, I have negative symptoms so will do it tomorrow hopefully.

I’m deeply concerned about the political situation in my country. But I know I’m not alone with that.

How I’m coping is focusing on day to day life, so today I worked and that was grounding, then I went to volunteer after a 2 month wait because of infection rates being high here for a while. I was actually a bit nervous about volunteering, I notice loss of confidence even in that short time, but I still wanted to go which was good. The group was good, and I’m hopeful we can continue to meet up from now on.

It’s a pretty strong drug which can be addictive as I understand it, so that might be why they are reluctant to prescribe. A friend took years to taper off it and finally off it now but had horrendous withdrawal effects.

I coped just fine today, returning to work after a break, it’s so much less stressful after Christmas build up. I’m enjoying normality.

Today I felt a bit tired, and my pain flared up, work was very full on too.

I visited my parents afterwards which was nice and then had to rush home to make food, eat and ready to sleep - one of those rushing about kind of days. It’s probably good that I don’t have time to overly dwell, that’s an unhealthy trait of mine. It’ll be nice to have some free time though.

Coping using distraction when I can.

I am doing well today after the med fiasco finally got fixed. I couldn't wait until it was ready after 11 though and I just went into the pharamacy when they opened at 9 and just asked them right then to fill it. Which they did. I don't think I sent any huge red flags to anyone. I did end up only get it filled 2 days early. And I think the reason I have not been hungry and am losing weight is because when I do get hungry I have been eating legit meals instead of snacking. So instead of rushing off to the doctor again I should just take a closer look at my food log.

I wish I could say that I read all the posts here, but I am quite sure I lack concentration. I have had a mixed episode today. I am very sensitive to chemicals - even smoking. I smoke a lot of ciggies and I know it messes up my mood. How have you handled the mood swings? Any help would be appreciated.

I stopped being able to cope years ago. I'm just gong on by inertia
I hate myself for what i've been when young but can't turn the page
I used to start so many projects in chaotic and childish way that it's hard to believe
I ruined life of people i was supposed to love
I dont know

I was doing bad but I am starting to move past things. I just am nauseated once again. My mom is cleaning the litter box so that might be it. I started using my fabric spray on my blankets and pillow cases the other day so I'm wondering if I am just having issues with that stuff in general.

I was feeling bad for being disowned. But, I will be ok. Life has its ups and downs. I am free here and nobody bothers me. I could feel sorry for myself. But, I'm actually happier being on my own. I just need to find another job again. I quit my other job since I thought my mother would help me. Oh well, never go on promises never kept by others. I will survive but it is hard to do everything on my own.

I avoided two planned things today. Maybe I should stop planning to go to yoga on Saturday, I never feel like going. The other was a volunteer thing I wasn't keen on / was kind of nervous about.

I started taking an increased dose of my ad starting yesterday. I *am* feeling better-ish, though yesterday it made me tired. It didn't make me tired today.

Its freezing here.