[AzulOscuro]

I have a person from the forum who is a friend and she’s helping me with my English. I have just sent her an audio…Oh my…You can’t guess how bad I performed. Slow as hell. I listened to it and I couldn’t even cope with myself. Full of pauses. Trying to look for the right word.
It’s not that I’m very talkative or express myself very fast in my language but in English it was so unbearable.
Some people have such a good skill at improvising and making themselves to be understood. I’m not.
I’m even faster writing.

Thanks god, she’s sweet and very understanding but I’m perfectionist and I always end up giving up all I can’t do at my best. It happened all my day long that’s why I was diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder traits.

I’m angry at myself.

[SpaghettiLegs]

Don't feel bad, you're trying hard and that's worth so much in a world where we often give up before we've even started! Your written English is very good, so that's another positive to keep in mind.

We fail when we don't try, eh?

[MrAbbott]

Hey Azul, just keep trying, don't give up so easily. I know it sounds like a big deal, but it's not, relatively speaking... with some daily effort and patience I'm sure you'll be able to make it! You already have a friend and a goal, go for it , you'll end up having fun when you improve your confidence. Hugs <3.

[Discombobulated]

I think you’re amazing speaking English as well as you do - I know very little Spanish, just enough to order a coffee lol.

[AzulOscuro]

I neither wrote the word I wanted to write in the thread’s introduction post.

* All my LIFE LIFE long. (not my day long)

Thank you all for your encouragement. And you all are right except Disco when saying that she thinks I speak English very well. lol!

Mr. Abbot, it’s true. I’m lucky for having a person who offered herself to help me. SpaguettiLegs, trying something is already important.

None of you know how long I have been learning English. From the very first moment I had my first lesson in school at 12, I fell in love with this language.
My stupid social anxiety and my perfectionism prevented me from speaking with a native person.

I’m not going to give it up. I promise. That happens to me because of my perfectionism and my insecurities.
It happened to me the same with social interactions. I isolated myself for 7 years at home to avoid them.
Or with driving a car. 18 I had my license. I made a couple of mistakes and I stopped driving for years.
And finally, I got to manage myself in both. And the issue with social interactions wasn’t a path of roses.
Thank you, guys.

P.D. Disco, ordering a coffee is helpful and ordering a beer, too lol! Una cervecita, por favor. 😀

[Discombobulated]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

I neither wrote the word I wanted to write in the thread’s introduction post.

* All my LIFE LIFE long. (not my day long)

Thank you all for your encouragement. And you all are right except Disco when saying that she thinks I speak English very well. lol!

Mr. Abbot, it’s true. I’m lucky for having a person who offered herself to help me. SpaguettiLegs, trying something is already important.

None of you know how long I have been learning English. From the very first moment I had my first lesson in school at 12, I fell in love with this language.
My stupid social anxiety and my perfectionism prevented me to speak with a native person.

I’m not going to give it up. I promise. That happens to me because of my perfectionism and my insecurities.
It happened to me the same with social interactions. I isolated myself for 7 years at home to avoid them.
Or with driving a car. 18 I had my license. I made a couple of mistakes and I stopped driving for years.
And finally, I got to manage myself in both. And the issue with social interactions wasn’t a path of roses.
Thank you, guys.

P.D. Disco, ordering a coffee is helpful and ordering a beer, too lol! Una cervecita, por favor. 😀

Well I still think you’re amazing, you overcame your fears and learned to drive, that’s something I never achieved and I know how hard it is to cope with social anxiety.

[AzulOscuro]

Sure, you never got to drive because you didn’t try it.

Thank you for this YOU ROCK it’s nice to hear something like that from time to time.

[Revenge Tour]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

I have a person from the forum who is a friend and she’s helping me with my English. I have just sent her an audio…Oh my…You can’t guess how bad I performed. Slow as hell. I listened to it and I couldn’t even cope with myself. Full of pauses. Trying to look for the right word.
It’s not that I’m very talkative or express myself very fast in my language but in English it was so unbearable.
Some people have such a good skill at improvising and making themselves to be understood. I’m not.
I’m even faster writing.

Thanks god, she’s sweet and very understanding but I’m perfectionist and I always end up giving up all I can’t do at my best. It happened all my day long that’s why I was diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder traits.

I’m angry at myself.

I simply admire the fact that you're taking on a second language and, having read what you write here, I must say you're doing better than you may think.

I envy people that can speak two or more languages. I think that is such a skill.

[indigo1015]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

I have a person from the forum who is a friend and she’s helping me with my English. I have just sent her an audio…Oh my…You can’t guess how bad I performed. Slow as hell. I listened to it and I couldn’t even cope with myself. Full of pauses. Trying to look for the right word.
It’s not that I’m very talkative or express myself very fast in my language but in English it was so unbearable.
Some people have such a good skill at improvising and making themselves to be understood. I’m not.
I’m even faster writing.

Thanks god, she’s sweet and very understanding but I’m perfectionist and I always end up giving up all I can’t do at my best. It happened all my day long that’s why I was diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder traits.

I’m angry at myself.

I think you’re being way too hard on yourself… learning a new language is no small feat, and your English is impressive! Better than that of some native English speakers, sorry to say. I think the fact that you give your all each time is really something. Keep going and don’t give up. You definitely rock!

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[AzulOscuro]

Actually, I was only exaggerating so I could receive good critics such as, the one by Revenge Tour or you. 😂
Nope, I’m kidding. I was always like that. I usually judge myself and I need to do it all perfect and at the soonest tries as possible. I’m working on that. Indeed, practising with a native speaker is kind of a challenge I think that I’m ready to face.

Thank you so much. 😀
And it’s said Practice makes perfect, doesn’t it?

I want to thank my marvellous online lovely friend lady because she has patience with me. She respects my social anxiety issues and all my insecurities. She’s awesome.

[Dia47]

Taking on a second language, I am finding, myself, is slow. Especially if you don't regularly speak to another person in that language. I speak English as my native tongue, but am learning my ancestral family language - Italian. I have been doing online lessons for a year now. But actually speaking to another person in italian would be - wow! very difficult for me.

Just saying - it takes patience and be easy on yourself.