[Rachael24]

Hi im new to this site and have joined because i just feel so sad sometimes. I have always had low self esteem (since i can remember) which seems to go up and down depending on whats gong on in my life. I think it steams from a broken home feeling abanded and unloved from my father and watching my mothers sadness and alcoholism (long story anyway) Its all a bit sad really. I have had problems in relationships but iam lucky to have found a great man now, who loves me and treats me very well and we have a little girl who is gorgeous!!! The problem is i feel like a failure as a parent. Im a stay at home mum so i have lost contact and pritty much have no friends and my family are quit far away. I dont get many visitors or phone calls and it just seems no one likes me. I try to contact people and am nice to people but they dont seem to respond. I quess you would say im lonely most the time. I feel like my family deserve better than me because of my mood swings. I feel like a failure because i left uni and could have done really well in a career and had more money to put towards the family home. I worry about what people think to much and think people see me as a bad mum. Im always looking to my partner for reassurance and he tells me im doing a gr8 job and i love my daughter and try to give her everything i can.

[leacon]

Welcome hope you find what you want here. I know loneliness far too well, but have never been in a remote area.

[turquoisesea]

hey there, to PC, this is a good place to talk about these things. One thing you might try to do is get out of the house as much as you can. A walk... going out anywhere but at least every other day, it's important. Keep reaching out to people, do you have any friends around that you might be able to visit or just watch something with? How about your kids friends? Maybe they have a playmate they'd like to visit... and while they're playing the parents can hang out too.. my mom did that alot one of her best friends is my best friend's mom =)

[yutzman]

Welcome, Rachel, the yutzman here, and I've read your post.....and find it so much like my own experience of life......and feel like a failure too...in my own world....I don't have kids....or a partner (right now)...but the symptoms of depression are the same.... and half a world away I can say....welcome.....I can give reassurance to you in your plight right now and say ...post back.........................

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Rachael24! Hopefully the folks here can be virtual friends in the hopefully temporary absence of flesh-and-blood friends.

Personally, I've never really overcome a lack of self-esteem. Over time I've just evolved ways of functioning - or not functioning - without reference to how I feel about myself. The meds help in that department. I try to keep in mind that feeling like a failure and being a failure are two different things without any necessary relationship between them. The love by which you nourish your family is real and probably much more effective than you suspect no matter how you feel.

Respectful Regards!

[gimmeice]

Hello Rachael, it's nice to meet you. Welcome to psych central. Have you considered seeing a therapist? Another idea is to join a support group in your area, I have meet friends in group therapy and it really seems to help me, I am a stay at home mom too.

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