[xxMSFxx]

every time i walk into a room it feels like everyone is staring, but the staring isn't the thing that bothers me, what really does it is i think everyone is thinking horrible thoughts about me. When i joke around with my friends or just chill with them, im always wondering what they are truely thinking about me. I fingure it must be bad. Also that the only reason there friends with me is because they feel pitty for me. This is really eating at me. I told one friend and she assured me that she loves me for me and is my friend cuz of that, but im still not really sure.............

[In_The_Darkness]

OMG! Seriously, that has got to be the worst part of my depression (aside from feeling ****) - always feeling paranoid. It's so bad for me that if I get to school late, I won't go into class because I am scared something will happen bad or they are talking about me.

Also, sometimes I have to go and get a teacher but if they're teaching I'll just leave it and walk around school for an hour until I get found so the teacher can walk in with me. Even then I find it scary. And the thing is.I've told the teachers at school this but they've done **** all about it. I tried going to ask a teacher to walk in with me (from STUDENT SUPPORT) and she said I should just get a grip.

Sigh.

because I still get this myself, I can't really give good quality support. But I will say just TRY as hard as you can to beat the paranoia and subsequent anxiety.

I hope things will get easier for you. Do you have a T ?

Hugs! x OXO

[xxMSFxx]

((In_The_Darkness))

i do the same thing if i have to go into a room where a teacher is teaching, or i avoid it all together. some times i can get a friend to do it for me.

talking to counselors at my school doesnt help either. when she talks to me its like she doesnt wanta be there with me, and that she has a fake smile on the whole time. even with her i feel like she thinks im just insane.

i dont have a T btw. im working hard to get one (my parents dont think i need one)

[In_The_Darkness]

i dont have a T btw. im working hard to get one (my parents dont think i need one)

That's ****ing **** hun x

Go and see a doctor. If you do, your parents won't have a choice on wether or not you see a T. Tell your doctor to tell you parents you DO need one.

Parent's say that because they don't want to admit to themselves their daughter or whatever has an illness. Either that or it's just because you perhaps pretend to be happy in public ?

[xxMSFxx]

im gunna talk to my family doctor about it, but i dont know how that will go.

i already had a doctor tell them tht i need to see a T. i guess they dont want hear it. every time i ask my ma about it she tells me that shes been trying but they just keep giving her the run around.

(i hope u get over the paranoia)

[In_The_Darkness]

I love you! lol (In the least weird way possible)

[turquoisesea]

glad you're looking for a T. For what it's worth, I have felt parnoid - I often wonder about what people think about me way too much. Yesterday I'm pretty sure some people were laughing at me at work because I made a stupid mistake ... I've learned to try to laugh too at this kind of thing. That situation I was embarrassed. But as far as general people in the room I've found the best thing is to try to appear like you assume the OPPOSITE - that they like you and you'd have no idea why they wouldn't.

That gives you an appearance that might give a better first impression, and also calms your body a little - with practice you can start to feel this way. Not easy but. Dunno thought I'd add it.

[JayS]

I go through this exact same thing everyday, I'm very paranoid....yet I can't take being alone

[xxMSFxx]

((turquoisesea))

thnks i will try it, cuz apparently good at putting on a front. well thats what im told