[neri]

I'm just so unbelievebly tired now. Haven't really done anything for few days, just played computer games aaaaaaargh.. i wish there was some energy pill i could take.. well okay there IS, but u know. So weird, seems like I get more tired as the summer gets closer..

AND i saw mom today when i was in the city looking for a better drinking bottle for the mice, she didn't regognize me cuz i looked down and passed her as quickly as i could.. of course she's never seen the clothes i was wearing either. Anyhow.. I obsessed about it for hours.

Ugh.. I'll shut up. I think i'm getting a headache..

[vacantangel]

I hope that your energy levels are replenished soon. I know how that feels but mine is my own doing by not taking good care of myself. I don't get enough sleep or eat near enough as I should, both of which will give you energy. Are you taking care of yourself?

[sometimes]

you don't see your mum?

[Wants2Fly]

I feel so tired too. Not just physically tired, but emotionally exhausted. As if no matter how hard I try to make life turn out "right" -- no matter how hard I work, no matter how positively I try to think, how much I pray, study, exercise, eat right, brush my teeth, drive carefully -- it's just gonna be one problem to solve after another, things falling apart, people I care about dying, bills arriving etc. etc.

Sorry for whining.

Sorry to hear that you're going through this again Laura. I know first hand that depression sucks. I hope you feel better soon. Just remember that I'm always here for y if you need me. Take care sweetie.

Ry

[Wants2Fly]

Hope you feel better, Neri. I apologize if the previous post was too much like a hijack.

[vacantangel]

How are you doing today sweetie?

(((((((( neri ))))))))

[dayzee9]

(((((((((((((Neri)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Did you know that there is now an "official diagnosis" for "Internet Addiction) It even has physical signs & symptoms!

And it sounds like you & I have it! I have been on the internet doing research of "self-help" web sites....I'm putting together a directory for "health care consumers" (screwed up people like you & the rest of us!

Signs & Symptoms: "Sufferers have a 'compulsion' to go on-line; on-line relationships (such as chat rooms etc) that takes precedence over working and home relationships in the real world. They may grow moody and irritable when they are unable to go on-line. Additonally associated features of this disorder include sleep deprivation (note: me.. ), moderate physical compliants such as back ache, eye strain and increased agitation."

I'm just the "messenger" so dont shoot me..just thought you be...."interested?"

Up until the midnight hours...........You & I need some good ole

Hang in there! and turn off your monitor for a few hours!

((((((((((((((HUGS! DayZee))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[neri]

Sorry i totally forgot i had posted here just gonna do this all in one post... soo...

Angelgirl, i certainly don't take care of myself (like all i've eaten today is chips) but it doesn't affect on whether or not i have energy. Cuz today i was at the stables and everything Of course i get a little dizzy when i exercise without bothering to eat

Sometimes, no i don't see her. I feel less bad if i don't. I pretty much pretend she doesn't exist.

Ryan youre too sweet i hope you feel better soon too.. Hugs sweetie!!

Wants2fly, no youre not hijacking anything, i know exactly what you mean. It's the endlessness of the need-to-do stuff that gets to me.. Like something as simple as cleaning, i don't even hate it or anything. But it's just so pointless doing it when i know it only takes a few days and then i have to do it again, and again, and again. BILLS!!! Theyre unbelieveble... If i have just ONE month when i use more money than i should, it will take half an year to get back on track...

And dayzee... I have no compulsion going on-line These days i don't even do that too much cuz it's just so blaaah.. I said i play computer games, i meant just a game, on cd, no on-line being required. I have no compulsion to that either, but it's handy, takes my mind of real life stuff and time passes by faster so i can go back to sleep. When i am tired like this i sleep A LOT.

Pheeeew... Totally got a fit today, i got a letter from the social insurance institute, they want me to do account (or whatever the word is) of my present income situation and they want like a gazillion attachments to it. That didn't bother me, i know everyone gets this every year, but what got to me was that they had marked me as a STUDENT!!! i am no frickin student!! I phoned my sister so i could rage about it to someone and she said that they just don't understand that someone is "nothing". Of their stupid choices i mean.... grrrrrr..... Then there was this whole another paper where i should clarify where i study and so on


aaaaaanyway ehheh.. my apartment looks like a bomb exploded here and i seem to compensate it by constantly cleaning the mice's cages instead