[Overcastbutclearing]

Well, I didn't realize there were rules posting.
I didn't realize I was supposed to scream for HELP by actually typing HELP ME! Dayzee clearly has let me know that in 2 of my earlier posts.
I thought just being on this site and typing what I was typing that it was implied I am looking for help.
I am not one to come right out and say HELP ME!
So, I guess until I learn the proper way of writing a post I will just shut the F U C K up

[wisewoman]

I am here and listening. Sorry for the pain. I know that feeling unheard stinks. I spend my life like that ya know.

[Wants2Fly]

I'm sorry that you're feeling bad and that I missed your online appearance. Hope we get a chance to chat sometimes. Be safe.

[dayzee9]

(((((Listen w/ quiet heart, SJ? )))))))

Hey Sweetie:
Please listen w/ a quiet heart for just a moment, please?

I was not trying to "re-write" any "guidelines for forums." I've just been noticing lately that there were a lot of new members who have been approaching the forums in search of support & weren't finding it & have sent PM's my way. SO?

Well, I tried the "hard-ball approach" that I have had to use with some of my patients in the past (YES, you're NOT my patient -- we come here as equals)shhhhh.....please listen!

The ultimate throw you have to give some people is that you just need to be a little more specific as to what they need! I've read so many posts from you over the past weeks -- you are obviously hurting -- I hate to see that...and if you have read ANYTHING about my past, well....I get a little pushy when I don't see things progressing fast enough. This is my "problem" In the healthcare system (even in Psych) they are shoving "Time Mgmnt Techniques" down our throats, so to "process" patients thru faster (One reason why I am unemployed..I don't agree w/ this 'format'") I'm sorry you had to be the target of this bit of s**** that was getting stuffed in MY head...it should NOT have been at your expense, and for that, I am TRULY sorry!

Some times, my fingers fly faster on the keyboard, than my brain....the result: OBVIOUS! I have hurt you and it was uncalled for and unfair...

PLEASE DON'T SHUT UP! You have been an active and positive part of this forum process..I have not. My "paint" is still not dried totally, thus, I have to "feel my way" around forums, subjects and like you....individuals! It must always remain permanent that all of us who come forward to these forums are all very different individuals. YOU are a separate, feeling individual....and I shouldn't have been "practicing my hardball techniques on you" Once again, my dear.........

And to anyone else that may have taken offense..I am equally as sorry...I just get frustrated. I'm NOT saying "I'm better" but I HAVE been more "exposed" to deep, heavy, complicated practices of Tx" This does NOT give me the authority or right to "practice it" on ANY of you...we are equals here.
No titles; no credentials.........this is the space where we are just all "human". We all have our shortcomings...I have exhibited one of mine.

I hope all will forgive.................

((((((((((((((((w/ DAYZEE))))))))))))))))))

we all come to these forums for one reason. support. you do not have to scream "help me" to be heard here. you didn't post "incorrectly"...there is no "incorrect" way to ask for help here. i'm sorry that you're upset. i can see why you would be. i'm sorry that i've been preoccupied recently and didn't notice what was going on here. i'm going to PM you.....hang in there.........pat

[dayzee9]

((((So sorry...I had no right to hurt you))))))))))

Fayeroder has made it quite clear I don't belong here....
My Besh Wishes to you!

((((((((Laura et. al. a.k.a: DayZee9))))))))))))

((((((((((SJ))))))))))

Hey, I'm sorry that you're upset and that you feel like you don't belong. Is there anyway that we could put this behind us? Maybe you two could ignore each other for a while until cooler heads can prevail? I'm sorry you guys are having trouble. This is just a thought. I hope this can be worked out. And SJ, you know that you can PM me anytime you need to talk.

Ry

[Overcastbutclearing]

Ya know. I am not sure at this point what is going on. I am very upset that Dayzee has posted she OD'd but was only knocked out. I think I am going to vomit over this.
How could this happen? Why did I post what I did?
I should just keep it all stuffed inside like I have for so long. First I upset people in my real life , now on this site. I feel like S H I T.
I am not dealing well with this at all.
How normal is this on this site?

SJ, we all have troubles here from time to time. I've had my share of spats. I hope Dolfin doesn't mind me telling this, but she and I had a NASTY spat not long ago in which we actually placed each other on ignore. You'd never know it now. I'm not saying you should do this or that, but if Dayzee is pissing you off, you can always ignore her. You deserve to be heard here. If you're not being anti-supportive then you've done nothing wrong. You have a voice that deserves to be heard and I for one will always listen. You shouldn't feel like crud cause you're not crud. You're a wonderful and caring person. I hope this makes you feel better about posting what you feel comfy with posting. Much love.

Ry

[Overcastbutclearing]

Thanks Ry.
It is just upsetting that she said she OD'd.
Really bothering me that this happened , you know.
But thanks for the support.
Needed it....getting ready to go to my T appt

Hey, good luck at the T. Let us know how it goes. And you're most welcome for the support. That's what we're here for. Take care dear friend.

Ry

[kimmydawn]

sj, i'm sorry for anyone who feels as dayzee did. however, as the sister of someone who is suicidal more often than not and has attempted. i know that there's nothing i could've said to stop or start those feelings.

no person is responsible for another's willingness, or not, to live. we just don't have that kind of control in ppl's lives. some might not agree with me, but that's out of the mouth of brother, who deals daily...

sj, be easier on yourself. you can't control another's feelings or actions...only yours hon.

i wish you well. i wish everyone well. i hope you have a good nite.

kd

[Wants2Fly]

I support what KimmyDawn said, SJ. Don't take on responsibilities that don't rightly belong to you.

hey.....i here....let me know how you're doing today. pat

[Overcastbutclearing]

Yes, I am finally realizing that I don't control any one's actions. And, I am not taking on any blame at this time.
I had a good T appt last night myself. Although I still don't even open totally up to my T about everything, I am trying.
I am learning a lot from being on this site.
Mostly, that we all are dealing with different areas of our depression.((((((everyone who has been supportive)))))

[nothemama8]

sj, it's now your turn to help me thriugh a crappy day if you would

what's up?

[nothemama8]

Crying jag, doom and gloom
Angie

i'm really sorry, angie......i hope that the remainder of the day looks up.......pat

[Overcastbutclearing]

I am doing okay today. I am glad I didn't just walk away from this site because of one person. This site has helped me grow, it has helped me be honest with myself, and it has helped me be more open with my T. I love to write...hate to talk!

Angie, we are here for you. Why is your day so crappy?
PM me!

Hugs to you all. You were there when I needed you the most. Now that is uncondtional support!

(((fayerody))) you have been my life saver!

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((( sj )))))))))))))))))))) i'm glad for you in many areas

warm wishes

kd

you're feeling good, girl! reaching out and opening up with your T!! woooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo

[nothemama8]

Hi all, doing better thanks to all, sj thanks for the pm

Angie

[Overcastbutclearing]

Is it me or is there a lot of tension on this site lately?
Are we making enemies or friends?
Are you posting something to help you feel better or make others feel like crap?
What is going on?

[oksomaybeimnuts]

That is why i read more than i post.