I will just shut up then...

sj , who do you mean? If it's me pm me
Angie

It isn't one specific person.
I don't know, maybe it is me?? I am really angry today. And I just feel like there is this one person who just posts %#@&#! to getd own on others. And PC keeps allowing it.
I guess maybe I just have to give this site a break.
Maybe I am getting too caught up or something.
I don't know.
I just have so much going on and maybe I am not processing things well.
Sorry guys!

It's not you kid , there does seem to be a lot of tension and when a person feels crummy they have a tendency to try to pull others with them, it's the "misery loves company" thing
Your doin fine
Angie

i tend to notice alot of tension around here too. i try to ignore it as much as i can because i understand when people are going through things in their lives the things they post may not always sound pleasant. on the other hand, when you're already going through something, to have a thread turn into bickering isn't helpful either.

i actually think that things are going to calm down. i think and pray that a poster who was disruptive is going to get some help.

(To All around the Depression Forum)))

I tend to agree w/ oksomaybeimsnuts; since I got back on the forums; I'm feeling afraid to post any thoughts, feelings or other wise.....there appears to be a tidal wave of paranoia sweeping through this forum & the one's that insinuate that it may be one particular person -- winds up making a "paranoid" member more "paranoid" Icky & sticky......not good!!!
(((Dayzee9 )))))

DayZee9, I too am feeling that parinoia, and am sooooo thankfull that we have someone so inligthened as you to help us in our sorrows

I need a break from this site.
I feel like I have caused a stir that perhaps is just growing out of control and people are no longer posting how they personally feel inside but how they feel about the site, the people, the forums.
I am not taking blame....please understand.
I am just going to take a day off from the site in order to refocus.
(((((to every user on pyschcentral))))

(((((Hey Girl! )))

We've been here before, yes!It sounds like you're afraid that you're the one stirring things up....and it's not!!
Sometimes you -- like I did earlier this week -- hit that "Submit" button before your brain can take it back! That doesn't mean that you & I or a few others I know...are BAD It just means that we have a lot to express & sometimes if just DOESN'T come out RIGHT!! I HATE IT!! But, it still happens from time to time -- but my big lecture tonight is how really "HUMAN" we all are! Some times we think we're thinking horrible things & that means there's something wrong with us --- but it's just not true! It just means that we all have our individual rights, wants & needs...we can't always get those things met in one or two forums...but we can TRY, right?
Just breathe, PUT THE CLUB DOWN!!! And give yourself credit for at least trying...its not like you're not going to get another try. Just THINK it through, but TALK from your heart!!

But, SJ..if you feel a need for a day off...take one..it's the weekend! Go out & do something you like; Give your brain & lungs from fresh air........you KNOW we ain't going anywhere, right? So, go for it!

End of lecture!

((Breezin' DayZee9)))))))

sj we'll be here when ya get back, thank God we don't have to worry about having any exclusive clubs here huh

Well, it is like 2am. I managed to stay off of pc for almost a whole day without reading or writing a post.
I am doing ok. My head tonight is going 1000 miles a minute. I can have a great day and then BAMMMMM....thoughts that tell me I am no good come from out of nowhere.
I feel like sometimes I should just "shut up" and "get over it". I am on celexa now 6 months and I am thinking of stopping it. I don't really think it is helping me. I did tell my T and she said we will talk about it next time I have a session. But, you know what, I don't even know if I will go.
I just feel like stuffing all my hurt and anger down deep is my best coping method. Really, does any give a doodoo if I live, die, runaway or disconnect from the world?
I am BPD....and although I have issues with the definition...I feel like no medicine and no therapy will help me in the end. You know what they say "S h i t or get off the pot!"
Anyway, I am just venting right now. I wish there was a magic want to make it all go away.
I have a script for Xanax in my wallet. My T would be so pissed if she knew my regular doctor gave me this scrip on Friday. I haven't filled it yet...but shutting out the world for a few days seems like such a reasonable thing to do.
Anyway....that is where I am right now............

(((((Yo SJ! ))))))

Please...continue to vent! You & I both know that if you hold it in, it will fester & boil & next thing you know...yu explode all over the walls, and it isn't pretty..yes?

I am so sorry that you're feeling so blue. Keep the roll of events w/ your T..and stay honest! She can't help you if you're sneaking around w/ Xanax. Besides, you are a very smart woman, this I know to be true.....but "zoning out" w/ the Xanax isn't good therapy! I know of what I speak......I can understand if you're feeling very anxious, pills may seem like the right answer.....but, once again....pills are not the answer to life...eh?

Stay true to your "inner voice", SJ......and be straight w/ your T! I know you to be a very strong, courageous woman..show them your colors! Live! Don't "zone"

As the old adage goes; "If drugs are the answer, what was the question?"

I'm pullin for ya always! "Be true to thine self" (or something like that?? it's almost 4 a.m. here, so I may have that wrong?)

Happy Sunday, SJ......let it slide ((w/hugs....DAYZEE))))))))

P.S. Can't we ditch this original slam (the "I will just shut up then" ?? It makes me feel creepy inside....)

Are you kidding me? Telling me "zoning" out won't help but knowing you took a little time off from the world by taking enough meds where is was close to OD'ing is f u c k i n g
hilarious.
Don't tell me how to cope if you yourself cannot cope.
And if you don't like the topic don't read it.

I don't know how to cope today.
I don't even know if I want to.

sj , hang in there *we* are here with ya, don't let ppl get ya upset it ain't worth it, needs to practice what she preaches, needs to stop telling us how to do better, she ain't GOD, I posted yesterday and never have I recieved areply from her.
The only thing creepy here is a ex-provider trying to save us
You my dear are doing just fine, pm anytime
Angie

I don't know the history behind dayzee and so many of the people who seem to have issues with her. BUT, I don't think openly voicing your displeasure at her attempts to help are going to improve things.

I don't know about dayzee, but if my name replaced her name, I would feel like I was being attacked in those two posts.

Amen! Dayzee's post sounds to me like she was trying to HELP.

I hope she continues to try to help people, and continues to learn here as well. Caregivers are sometimes clients too, ya know?

em

dayzee is going through a rough time herself right now, so I think it's admirable that she still has the strength to reach out to others in her own way.

Let's try to get past prior hurts to see that.

I'm closing this thread because it seems like two people keep mis-hearing each other... There's support trying to be offered, but it's turned down with a profane, sarcastic remark.

I understand sometimes anger gets the better of us, and we feel like we need to lash out (especially at those who are trying to help or support us). But when you do that here, it makes people feel hurt and close up.

This is, first and foremost, a support community. So if you don't appreciate the support you ask for, then I suggest finding another way to ask for it (or at least don't denigrate those offering you support).

DocJohn