[dolphinmkr44]

I feel so alone, depressed, hopeless, and lost. I don't really know where I belong anymore. I thought coming here would be good for me, but I only went down hill last week.

My T wants to talk about my sexual abuse and get my anger out. This really scares me and I am having panic attacks.

My mother took my son away from me and I had to fight to even get him back. My family all together has completely shunned me because I am trying to speak up for the first time in my life. I'm no good to them, and no good to anyone else.

This world is so hard to live in when you feel like no one cares so I begin to not care about myself. So much damage I have already done to other people and myself. There is nothing left.

[idontknow13]

((((dophinmkr44)))))
Yes you are good and you are not alone, we care

[ADHD1956]

Hang in there. It would be good to discuss the sexual abuse; to get it out in the open and to resolve it. Are you taking medication for the panic attacks? It would be good if you were.

Have a Good Day dear friend!

[Rohag]

Hello! Dolphinmkr, you're dealing with several monumental challenges I can barely imagine. If I had some special words to lessen the fear of speaking of your trauma with your T, I would say them. May someone here or anywhere with those words step forward and encourage you.

Just my opinion, but your speaking up is a courageous act that, sooner or later, will benefit people. You may never see the results of speaking up, but doing so is praiseworthy. Thank you.

[*freak*]

Yes, it's very hard to live in this world. But don't give up: we all care here, because you ARE good (don't listen to your family, they just can't get it) and that's why you have to keep fighting for your well-being. You deserve it
Take care

[justfloating]

((((((((dolphinmkr)))))))))))


I can't imagine how difficult it must be to talk about your past traumas, but I really respect and admire your courage in even contemplating doing so. You can do this and you ARE a good person in a difficult place, and don't let your family, your depression or anyone else tell you otherwise.

Also, there is always something left, and that's the future. Things CAN change. If it helps, while you're working through your past difficulties, maybe remind yourself that you are doing this in order to have an easier and more beautiful future down the road. You deserve it.

[googley]

Take care of yourself and go as slowly as you need. We are here for you.

[Catie]

Originally Posted by dolphinmkr44

I feel so alone, depressed, hopeless, and lost. I don't really know where I belong anymore. I thought coming here would be good for me, but I only went down hill last week.

My T wants to talk about my sexual abuse and get my anger out. This really scares me and I am having panic attacks.

My mother took my son away from me and I had to fight to even get him back. My family all together has completely shunned me because I am trying to speak up for the first time in my life. I'm no good to them, and no good to anyone else.

This world is so hard to live in when you feel like no one cares so I begin to not care about myself. So much damage I have already done to other people and myself. There is nothing left.

I'm sorry for the way you feel. I feel pretty miserable lately too.My family is ok, but i hardly even talk to them, they have their own lives.I am all alone with no friends.My mom says that i have to meet people but i don't want to b/c there is always that trust issue with people.I have no children and never even had a real boyfriend.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((( dolphin )))))))))))))))))))

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((dolphinmkr44)))))

Thank you for trusting enough to post and for reaching out. We do care very much and are listening and hearing what you are saying. First you are worth it. And reaching out tells me that you are fighting this. I know it is hard but you can do it.

I know talking about the past and the abuse is hard. Take your time and talk as you can. It will help and getting out the secrets is breaking the bond it has over you. It will be hard but doing it will help. Just remember to breath and take it slowly. Just breaking the secret is a big thing.

I am sorry for what you are going through with your family. It has to be hard. But please know that you are good and worthwhile. Family doesn't understand and alot of times does get angry because they just do not understand or just do not get it. But that does not make you a bad person.

The first step is always the hardest and the scariest. For me, it was very scary. I held on to the chair like it was going to take off. And my nuckles were white from grasping the arms of the chair. It took me awhile to talk and that was okay. I only said what I could a little at a time.

I have been where you are and I know it is not easy and very terrifying----but know we are here to support you and walk with you as you face this path. It will get easier as you let go. Please be easy on yourself and take your time. Remember to breath and know you are in charge.

Please take care of you. You are worth it. I know it is hard to live when you feel no one cares, but we do care. Taking care of you is important. Taking one day at a time is all we can do. There is something left----today. Beginning now you have today----and it is a start.

Please keep reaching out here and know we are hearing what you are saying. We do care very much. If you need to talk or want to pm me, please know that is okay. I do care. Sending you a gentle hug if that is okay.

dps

[Sabrina]

It sounds really trite - but there really is light at the end of the tunnel. Just that the tunnel sometime seems to be very long. I really believe there is hope. For all of us. Please take special care of yourself during this difficult time.