[BlackTears]

This weekend me and my girls went to stay with my mother in law on her farm for the weekend. When im up here its such a peaceful place, in the middle of nowhere surrounded by farms and fields and mtns. I seem to always relax when im here and its so nice. I believe my girls see a difference in me cause I see a difference in them. Though this weekend isnt the greatest me and the girls are sick. Yeasterday it was my youngest with the fever, today its my oldest with the fever and well all of us are so sick to our stomachs. I havnt slept much this weekend tonight I cant sleep and im so tired but thoughts just keep racing in my head. When im away from my husband im so relaxed and things just seem easier. Its sad isnt it.. I know my husband and I should divorce and thats what I want for all of us to be better not just me and the kids but I want him to have a better life as well.. I know their is someone out their who he can be happy with and I want that for him but he wont leave he thinks us being togeather happy or not is whats best for the kids.. Im not strong enough to just leave, I dont want to hurt him or the kids but what kind of live are we living we both know were not happy and cant be togeather, we both know and so does everyone else that were only togeather for the kids.. I just dont know what to do anymore..Just dont know..

[turquoisesea]

no words but sending hugs

[Berries]

Just a thought...

Maybe you could tell your husband that you two are setting a bad example of what a marriage is.

Does he want them to grow up and think that is the only kind of marriage there is and therefore avoid it? Or choose a partner and have the same kind of marriage that you have?

I'm sorry you have to live this way.
And sorry everybody is so sick on your vacation!!!

[*freak*]

I'm sorry for what you're going through

I think you should talk to your husband about this, you two really should have a long and honest talk. People often stay together because they think it's better for the kids. In my experience it's a huge mistake whose consequences are often worse than those of a divorce.
As Berries said it gives the kids the wrong idea about what marriage and family are supposed to be. But what is even worse is that they'll have to watch the unhappiness of their parents every single day and they won't be able to do anything about it. Staying together for kids' sake is going to be much tougher on them in the long run then the stress of a separation.

I wish you luck

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((BlackTears))))

Sending you hugs. Sorry you are going through this. And I am sorry you and your kids are so sick. I hope you all feel better really soon. I do not know what to really say about the other. I just know from experience that staying together for the kids is not the best solution. Sometimes, kids think they are to blame when things go wrong. Just take time to think and talk to him about things. I wish you the best of luck.

dps

[Fuzzybear]

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