[coachllama]

Please help me.

My girlfriend broke up with me about 2 weeks ago and I still love her just as much as i always have. I talked to her and she did nothing but make me feel worse. I wanted to go to her to see if she could make me feel better like she used to. She likes this other guy who used to be a close friend and they have been writing poems for each other and everything and they uploaded pictures of them in the park together and her wearing a pretty dress on facebook. After that I took him and her off my friends and am trying to remove them from everything. I have never felt so ****** in my entire life.

Recently I started seeing a therapist and have had one appointment so far.

Right now I'm just sobbing, I cut myself for the first time in a year, and I stole a beer from my parents fridge to try and see if it would make me feel better. I feel like at this rate I'm just destroying my body.

I used to only think about suicide occasionally but now it's constantly on my mind. I have just been feeling worse and worse and worse as each day passes by. I want to just try and end it but don't want to hurt the people around me. I just don't see the point in living anymore.

I don't want to put up with all this crap anymore.

I'm desperate for help.

Please please please leave a comment giving me advice.

[gimmeice]

((((((((((( coachllama )))))))))))))))

I am sorry that you are feeling so bad. Try to give the therapy a chance, it takes a while to see progress but is really worth the effort. It really sounds like you need to move on with your life which I know is difficult but you need to try to get out with friends or even get out and meet some new friends, life is full of possibilities.

[Rohag]

Your personal safety trumps everything. It's not wrong to turn your focus on yourself and let the people around you know you need special attention and possible assistance. Analogies are imperfect, but if I were being assaulted by a mugger (read: myself taken over by malicious depression), I'd scream for help.

Be safe.

[Pomegranate]

I am sorry you are feeling sooooo bad. You are too young to be making a decision about ending your life. It may seem right now that you will always feel the way you do and that nothing good can ever happen to you. That's the depression talking, that's the hurt from losing your girlfriend talking. But it's not true.

Feeling the hurt after losing someone you love is good and natural. We have to grieve to get over them. Let yourself cry and feel bad, this will help you to get to feeling better again sooner. Trying to stop the pain or blaming yourself that this girl changed her mind about your relationship will just make the pain last longer. It wasn't YOUR fault. She has her feelings and reasons and that's about HER, not about you not being "good enough" or something like that. You are okay just as you are. She is okay just as she is.

You need to grieve then find friends who like you just as you are, and remember - people change and friendships change. That's not anyone's fault, it's just the nature of human beings. Don't make any permanent decisions about a temporary situation. Time will heal your wound. Be gentle with yourself and take care of yourself.

I'm 55 years old. I had a couple relationships end that made me feel like I wanted to die, but I lived. And after some time - almost a year in one case - I found out I could be happy again even though that person was no longer a part of my life.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Pomegranate

You need to grieve then find friends who like you just as you are, and remember - people change and friendships change. That's not anyone's fault, it's just the nature of human beings. Don't make any permanent decisions about a temporary situation. Time will heal your wound. Be gentle with yourself and take care of yourself.

A wonderful summary.

[Naturefreak]

(((coachllama)))
Loving and losing someone can make you ask yourself ,
What did I do wrong ? Why are they gone ?
Who knows if the reasons why they left you are true.
Who cares ? That's what I say now after putting myself through
torture for something I could not change. I've been where you are,
know how it feels , and I'm telling you know . Let her go .
If she comes back , great . If she doesn't , great .
Cutting yourself and drinking is not going to bring her back .
NOBODY is worth cutting yourself over .
Drinking will only make things worse .
I'm sorry you are going through this , and it will hurt for some
time . I just hope I reached you in some way that your time
of being heartbroken will be significantly reduced.
Relationships are like jackets . If it doesn't fit , try on another.
Take care of yourself
You are worth it