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Old Aug 12, 2009, 02:27 AM
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I swear sometimes my head feels so cloudy and fuzzy that even my hobbies seem to be a chore. I reach periods of time where I don't want to see or talk with friends and have to rehearse what I could say just to keep a conversation going. I fear sometimes that I'll drive away friends that I'd like to believe I care about by being really cold and distant with them. I don't exactly intend to be. It seems to happen alot of the time when I get into these deppressive like moods.

However, I find myself annoyed with these depressive spells. I don't get anoyed because they happen, cause Ive generally accepted that for one reason or another, I end up feeling like this. What annoys me is that I always, these days and in the past, try to fight it off and wait to see if it gets so bad that I can't function for anything. However, everytime I think about getting help, it seems to magically lift itself for a while and so I don't. So this time, I was really was going to talk to a counselor regardless of what hapened, but go figure, after about two weeks, I'm feeling fine, and I'm not supposed to be seeing anyone for atleast another two weeks.

Even if I go talk about this, I'm not sure what kind of help it'll be if I'm not feeling bad at the time. It's things like this that really make me think I'm just making it up, but when its bad, it's pretty bad so I think I'm just in denial. I'm tired of playing these mind games with myself but I don't want to seem stupid when I go and actually talk

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Old Aug 12, 2009, 07:37 AM
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(((((( Foxshade )))))))))

When you go to talk to a counselor you can just explain these depressive moods, you don't have to be feeling it at the time to explain it. I am sending you lots of hugs.
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Old Aug 12, 2009, 09:04 AM
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I swear sometimes my head feels so cloudy and fuzzy that even my hobbies seem to be a chore. I reach periods of time where I don't want to see or talk with friends and have to rehearse what I could say just to keep a conversation going. I fear sometimes that I'll drive away friends that I'd like to believe I care about by being really cold and distant with them. I don't exactly intend to be. It seems to happen alot of the time when I get into these deppressive like moods.

However, I find myself annoyed with these depressive spells. I don't get anoyed because they happen, cause Ive generally accepted that for one reason or another, I end up feeling like this. What annoys me is that I always, these days and in the past, try to fight it off and wait to see if it gets so bad that I can't function for anything. However, everytime I think about getting help, it seems to magically lift itself for a while and so I don't. So this time, I was really was going to talk to a counselor regardless of what hapened, but go figure, after about two weeks, I'm feeling fine, and I'm not supposed to be seeing anyone for atleast another two weeks.

Even if I go talk about this, I'm not sure what kind of help it'll be if I'm not feeling bad at the time. It's things like this that really make me think I'm just making it up, but when its bad, it's pretty bad so I think I'm just in denial. I'm tired of playing these mind games with myself but I don't want to seem stupid when I go and actually talk
((((Foxshade)))) This is not uncommon with our illness. What I do is print out my posts like yours here and take it in with me and share it with my professional help. This will show them how you are feeling at different times in your life - the down side. Not saying this will work for you but it does me. Good luck - hugs for your day.
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Old Aug 12, 2009, 09:15 AM
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I would strongly urge you to go get help anyway, tell them what happens with you - no matter how good you are feeling. Having mood swings like you describe does not sound normal. Why not find out for sure what is going on, it could even be something physical, like a thyroid problem. And it could get worse over time so why not at least find out what's causing the up and down feelings you have.

I very much understand what you are saying when you talk about how you are feeling, even hobbies feel like a chore, don't want to be around friends, etc. I too feel that way when I am depressed. I don't really want to be all alone, but EVERYTHING is such an effort that it really is too hard to do the simplest things.
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Old Aug 12, 2009, 10:30 AM
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