Depressed again

Just be you and take care of yourself. We can not help it if we are ill all we can do is fight it untill there is a cure. By the way I like peas. LOL Hugs for your day.

((((((((((Amazonmom)))))))))))

I just wanted to let you know that I admire your spirit and strength.

I know you are depressed and probably don't even believe you have those things.

BUT YOU DO!!!!!

OUCH! I just HATE when people say such spiteful things as if your pain and suffering are self-indulgent! Do NOT listen to that garbage - they do not know what they're talking about. If anything, they are indulging their own pettiness at your expense. Pity them.

I'm sorry for what you're going through... I hope you feel better very soon

Take care and ignore the rude comments of insensitive people

Vent away! This is to be a place where we can say what's on our mind and be supported by others for doing so. Some days/weeks/months are very weary-ing on the soul. I've been told that when you share a problem with someone it becomes half a problem. Hope your situation improves for you very soon.

Wise words. Hugs to all.

(((Amazonmom)))

Sorry I missed all this . Hoping you feel better soon .
Depression lies to us all everyday.

Thanks for all the responses, it makes me feel so much better!

I talked with my T yesterday, she missed a week because of her broken fridge. I thought I was DYING after 12 days without T! She felt really bad that I left thinking she had such a low opinion of my mothering. She actually thinks I am a good mommy. So rupture fixed!

We talked a lot about why I feel like a horrible mommy. She and I talked about things I haven't been able to admit up until now. She thinks we need to keep working on this stuff for a while...YES she is right. But I know that I need to come fully clean with her. I don't know how to say "hey, T! I knew I needed help the day I called you...because I was seriously planning my death!". The breastfeeding stuff all works into the bad mother thing. Long story, but I quit breastfeeding because the hormone release whenever I fed my baby made me think my "plan" was a TERRIFIC idea. I didn't bring it up with her because she breastfed both of her own kids and she was a big shot at the hospital I work for...so I thought she would be angry with me for not thinking breastfeeding is the best thing ever. My T is going to be SO MAD at me for hiding this from her. She'll probably terminate me.

What's weird is my T has never gotten angry with me over anything. So why would I think she would be so upset? Guess that's for the psychotherapy board!

I promise you--your T will NOT terminate you for hiding anything from her! It takes time sometimes to tell our Ts things---the stuff we are insecure about or ashamed of... Don't worry, she will be ok with what you say and the timing of it.

I love that you asked yourself that question - shows real insight - shows that you are questioning the lies that our depression and other MIs tell us. Keep it up!

DEPRESSION doesn't want me to be happy, so it tells me the worst thing that could happen IS what will happen.

How about I don't listen to DEPRESSION. Today I chose to go work out instead of crying in bed like I have been for a while. I chose not to have more caffeine, (which switches me into hypomania), instead I did the work out and bought some things I needed at Target.

I will do a good job at work tomorrow, because I am a good nurse. I am not the crappiest nurse ever just because I might have difficulty or need help on occasion.

You are right (DEPRESSION doesn't want me to be happy). You said it right there. That is what you have to remember, don't listen to all of the other lies it is telling you. You are one awesome person. Hugs for your day.

Hugs everyone i cry alot and know about depression so hugs!!

Great on ((((((((((Amazonmom)))))))))) !!!!!