[lost49]

I havent signed into this site for awhile, i dont really know my way around. But i really cant take this depression anymore, i take paxil and klonophin everyday, i lost my insurance so i dont know how i will get my next prescripsion. Im tired of worrying about my 22 yr old daughter and her 3 children, im tired of missing my son, he shot himself in 2004. Im just so tired of everything,

[idontknow13]

((((lost49)))))
I am so sorry you feel this way and I understand. Take good care of yourself

[Naturefreak]

(((lost49)))
So sorry to hear that .

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by lost49

I havent signed into this site for awhile, i dont really know my way around. But i really cant take this depression anymore, i take paxil and klonophin everyday, i lost my insurance so i dont know how i will get my next prescripsion. Im tired of worrying about my 22 yr old daughter and her 3 children, im tired of missing my son, he shot himself in 2004. Im just so tired of everything,

((((lost49)))) Sorry to hear you are down. There are ways to get medications cheaper if you look under the drug thread here, there are some ideas for help. Keep coming back here to post you are not alone and there are many people with ideas to help. Hugs for your day. We all care so please do ask for our help, if we can we will.

[Edahn]

That sounds rough. I can see why you'd want to withdraw from everything, given how much pain your feel in your life right now. I also think, though, that your situation could be improved if you decide you want it to improve. You won't be the first person to come out of depression and anxiety or the last. Both of those have been studied by psychologists who have designed ways for you to understand, make peace with, and let go of your pain, slowly but surely.

If there's a therapist you can visit in your area, that would be great. Perhaps a book on grieving and anxiety management would serve you well too.

I know it seems insurmountable, like you just fell off a giant mountain and are now looking up to see how far you have to climb back up. Try and gather yourself and set a good, brisk hiking pace back up. You'll move a little every day until one day you'll realize you're all the way up and are stronger for having done it.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((( lost49 ))))))))))))))))

[*freak*]

I hope things will get sorted out for you very soon

[lynn09]

Take a deep breath, Lost49, and let it out slowly. Talk to the doctor who prescribes your meds and let him/her know that you are having difficulties; your meds might need to be adjusted. If you lost your insurance, you may qualify for assistance through your local county hospital/clinic, and at a reduced fee depending on your income. Also, many pharmaceutical manufacturers have programs to help individuals without insurance get their medications (sometimes even free) through programs they administer. Talk to the doctor who prescribes your meds to see if you can get such assistance. Also, call your county hospital/clinic regarding your situation and find out what assistance they can offer. You need to worry about and care for yourself more than others right now; if you're not in good shape, you can't really be there for anyone else. Feed your soul - read poetry, listen to music, watch old movies, etc. - whatever it is that you enjoy (or used to enjoy) even though you may feel disinterested - doing something you used to enjoy even can reawaken memories within you of good feelings derived from such things. Take a walk in a pretty and soothing environment or engage in some other physical activity to pump some endorphines into your system (make you feel better). Depression can be a bully, but you don't have to "take it." Put it in its place - it is something you are dealing with, but it is NOT you -don't let it control you. Hope you feel better soon.

[Yoda]

I agree with what the previous folks have said. Try to do something you enjoy (or used to enjoy) for at least fifteen minutes every day. Plan something positive into your day.

With the huge stressors that you have it is not surprising that you are sad. Those are some difficult things to deal with. I am so sorry about the loss of your son.

Perhaps it is time for some tough love for your daughter. My son reached that point two years ago and I wrote a contract and had him sign it. Most important was that he had to respect me or he had to leave.

[dreamsofflight]

Paxil is manufactured by Glaxo Smith Kline below is their prescription assistance program link.
http://www.bridgestoaccess.com/

I'm on SSA disability and medicare stops paying for your meds after a certain amount of money has been spent. Its called the Gap. I needed help paying for Lamictal (another med they make) last year. I qualified and was sent a card to give to the pharm I then got my meds for Free. I really can't say enough good things about them and Astra Zenaca. AZ let's me pay only $25 for every refill of Seroquel. So anyone taking one of their meds in the same boat can try.

Do you have to take Klonipin or can you take the generic clonazepam. I use a card my county ( I live in Florida) provides to get it for about half price. I pay about $17 for this med which isn't covered at all by Medicare. I got the card at my library.

Hope this helps.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((lost49))))

Dear one, I am sorry you are feeling so low. I can understand why and you have every right to your feelings. I know how we can worry about our children and our grandchildren. I know how sometimes it is a hopeless feeling. And you want so much to help them but there is just nothing you can do except send them loving thoughts and prayers.

I understand about missing a child. Not in the way you have experienced but similar in so many aspects. I can feel your pain there and I know that you cannot forget it or get it out of your mind. It is hard for me to even talk about this at all. The pain is excruciating. But I know that somehow it will let up a little at a time. But it takes alot of time.

I am not there yet myself but I do understand. Please be kind to yourself and keep reaching out. We are here for you and we are listening. Sometimes it is hard to do that I know, but even just a hi to let us know you are okay.

I agree with what has been said as far as meds go. There are ways to get help to get them. Please try to look into that for your meds are important. There are means out there.

I know you are tired of depression. It is cruel and it does not care who it hits. It has no mercy and it lies to us. Keep reaching out and fighting it. For it hates us to reach out and ask for support. But if we keep reaching it will someday lose its grip if we are consistant.

I know the feeling of wanting to give up. But if we all gave up, we would allow the depression and the past to win. We are all survivors and we survived for a reason. And together we can encourage and help one another through the rough times. And we can be there to share when there is a good time.

Everyday try to do something kind for you. You are so worth it. Please keep us informed on how you are doing. We do care. And we are here for you. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps