[Josie Sullivan]

Having spent the whole day in bed crying and not eaten anything, i got myself up today and had a hot bath and washed my hair. Had a very long chat with a friend last night and we are meeting up. I am also going to talk to my GP this week about stuff and see i can get some anti depressants or something. But at least i am beginning to crawl out of the maze....

[bridgie]

That sounds like a great plan. Good first step on your way to getting up. Good luck

[justfloating]

(((((((Josie Sullivan))))))))

That's great. I'm glad you're taking your first steps to getting out of these feelings. Ypu don't have to feel this way and they CAN be beaten. Best of luck.

[Rohag]

Good for you! Best wishes for the beginning of your path out

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Josie Sullivan

Having spent the whole day in bed crying and not eaten anything, i got myself up today and had a hot bath and washed my hair. Had a very long chat with a friend last night and we are meeting up. I am also going to talk to my GP this week about stuff and see i can get some anti depressants or something. But at least i am beginning to crawl out of the maze....

Way to go (((Josie Sullivan))). Hugs for your day.

[Berries]

(((((((((((Josie)))))))))))

[Josie Sullivan]

Thanks ! I decided that whilst yes i do have depression i am not going to allow my so called friends drag me down to such a low level that i considered no longer wanting to be around. They are not worth it. So whilst i was very very hurt by them i will not let them win. So i have decided to fight this blasted thing. Watching some of my favourite DVD's help And i treated myself to a nice lunch. First thing i've had to eat since Friday night. I can beat this thing. Just a matter of time.... The holiday to London will help

Thanks once again for your support.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Josie Sullivan

Thanks ! I decided that whilst yes i do have depression i am not going to allow my so called friends drag me down to such a low level that i considered no longer wanting to be around. They are not worth it. So whilst i was very very hurt by them i will not let them win. So i have decided to fight this blasted thing. Watching some of my favourite DVD's help And i treated myself to a nice lunch. First thing i've had to eat since Friday night. I can beat this thing. Just a matter of time.... The holiday to London will help

Thanks once again for your support.

((((Josie Sullivan)))) Jobs Well Done!!!! Hugs for your day..

[Naturefreak]

(((Josie Sullivan)))

[Lost71]

((((((((Josie)))))))) ...Well done, I know how hard it is to self-motivate when things are bad, we all do. Good for you for deciding to take control, hun!

[Josie Sullivan]

Thank you! What hurt me late last night was that my so called friend pretended not really to be aware that i woould be doing a charity walk when she knew damn well it was me and that she pushed me away from it. It was so decitful !!! She just said I beleive another fan will be doing her own walk. The lying toe rag !! GRRRRRR!

But i am not going to let them get to me. I will overcome this. I have to. I actually think my so called friends have bigger problems and will suffer in the long term. Let them lie as much as they want ! But hey i am not gonna focus on that. I am gonna concentrate on getting me better !

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Josie Sullivan

Thank you! What hurt me late last night was that my so called friend pretended not really to be aware that i woould be doing a charity walk when she knew damn well it was me and that she pushed me away from it. It was so decitful !!! She just said I beleive another fan will be doing her own walk. The lying toe rag !! GRRRRRR!

But i am not going to let them get to me. I will overcome this. I have to. I actually think my so called friends have bigger problems and will suffer in the long term. Let them lie as much as they want ! But hey i am not gonna focus on that. I am gonna concentrate on getting me better !

I want to say something here that you might not be looking for but it is me.

In my case with depression I feel that everyone is out to get me. Every word I hear, every movement that I see, every time the phone rings, every time there is a knock on my door, every time I see someone looking at me, most e-mail I get. I feel that someone is out to get me. This includes everyone IRL. Not sure why but I see it in myself. It is that I am paranoid of everything and everyone. And depression makes me see and hear what it wants me to see and hear not what is said or done. Just a thought. Hugs for your day.

[Josie Sullivan]

Well there is an element of truth in what you said. I was very snappy on the phone today and felt people who i was speaking to were being deliberately rude. However the woman in question whom i referred to earlier had written down her statement rather than verbally, so in that particular case i know it was vindictive behaviour. Anyway i am not going to play her game and just carry on leading my own life. It is the only forward.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Josie Sullivan

Well there is an element of truth in what you said. I was very snappy on the phone today and felt people who i was speaking to were being deliberately rude. However the woman in question whom i referred to earlier had written down her statement rather than verbally, so in that particular case i know it was vindictive behaviour. Anyway i am not going to play her game and just carry on leading my own life. It is the only forward.

I agree, some people just don't get it and if your friends don't, as you said, it might be time to move on. I was only telling what I have see with my depression and sharing that with you. Hugs for your day and always (as you are doing) take care of you first.

[Josie Sullivan]

Originally Posted by depressedalaskan

I agree, some people just don't get it and if your friends don't, as you said, it might be time to move on. I was only telling what I have see with my depression and sharing that with you. Hugs for your day and always (as you are doing) take care of you first.

Thank you. I am having a period of self doubt now. Without going into too much detail one of them wished me luck for my sponsered walk on a forum for Saturday. I dont think it was meant sincerely.

[Berries]

Originally Posted by Josie Sullivan

Thank you. I am having a period of self doubt now. Without going into too much detail one of them wished me luck for my sponsered walk on a forum for Saturday. I dont think it was meant sincerely.

I had a therapist once who said never take anything personally. It is always about the other person's issues; not about you.

Do you think this could be the case here with your former friends. That something , I have no idea what, is going on for them and they are projecting it on you? If so, it really has nothing to do with you and if it has nothing to do with you, there is really no point in getting upset about it.

I'm not trying to minimze your pain, for I know it is real and just, I am just trying to look for ways for you to ease that pain and move on.