[lonelyperson92]

It's that feeling again, the feeling of despair and loneliness... Sometimes I wonder if I'm normal or not since I have a very spontaneous moods. There are days that I just get super duper hyper than the other days I suddenly just become gloomy. Last night, I just couldn't manage to sleep - I kept thinking about how sad my life is... always locked up...

[Rohag]

Lonelyperson, please pardon the questions (no need to answer to anyone):

• How long have you experienced rapidly shifting moods?
• What do you mean by "always locked up?"

I'm sorry about the loneliness and despair. Do you have interests or diversions powerful enough to blunt the bite of the bad feelings?

Originally Posted by lonelyperson92

It's that feeling again, the feeling of despair and loneliness... Sometimes I wonder if I'm normal or not since I have a very spontaneous moods. There are days that I just get super duper hyper than the other days I suddenly just become gloomy. Last night, I just couldn't manage to sleep - I kept thinking about how sad my life is... always locked up...

hi, im just like you. there's many of us im sure. its 6.50am here and i cant sleep myself, havent sleep all night. and im having very emotional thoughts right now, basically same like you how sad my life is. i was in the support chat room before but no one's there. i think i need some support right now, this moment, im very low atm. so i thought be there for the others would help myself a little bit. take care

[lonelyperson92]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Lonelyperson, please pardon the questions (no need to answer to anyone):

• How long have you experienced rapidly shifting moods?
• What do you mean by "always locked up?"

I'm sorry about the loneliness and despair. Do you have interests or diversions powerful enough to blunt the bite of the bad feelings?

It's okay Rohag

I have been in this situation for almost 10 months now and its pretty much the time when I came here...

This "locked up" is meant physically and mentally. When I was in my country, my parents didn't let me go outside that much because they feared that I might be kidnapped, get an accident, or simply get into trouble. My parents are just overprotective yet, they are almost never at home due to work. In other words, I obey my parents orders and rarely go outside.

In the same time, it sucks because when I do get outside, I have a hard time to communicate with other people - making me conscious how introverted I am. Which sucks even more because I couldn't make reliable friends.

[lonelyperson92]

Originally Posted by perfectsilence

hi, im just like you. there's many of us im sure. its 6.50am here and i cant sleep myself, havent sleep all night. and im having very emotional thoughts right now, basically same like you how sad my life is. i was in the support chat room before but no one's there. i think i need some support right now, this moment, im very low atm. so i thought be there for the others would help myself a little bit. take care

Thank you I'm sorry that there wasn't anyone in the chatroom, however, just by knowing that someone out there is feeling the same thing makes me does makes me feel better. Thank you Please take care yourself too.

[lonegael]

(((((lonelyperson))))))

[stefano]

Originally Posted by lonelyperson92

When I was in my country, my parents didn't let me go outside that much because they feared that I might be kidnapped, get an accident, or simply get into trouble. My parents are just overprotective yet, they are almost never at home due to work. In other words, I obey my parents orders and rarely go outside.

In the same time, it sucks because when I do get outside, I have a hard time to communicate with other people - making me conscious how introverted I am. Which sucks even more because I couldn't make reliable friends.

Hey, this is serious! They LITERALLY locked you up. No wonder you feel so bad... It can't go on that way.

[stargeezer]

Originally Posted by lonelyperson92

It's that feeling again, the feeling of despair and loneliness... Sometimes I wonder if I'm normal or not since I have a very spontaneous moods. There are days that I just get super duper hyper than the other days I suddenly just become gloomy. Last night, I just couldn't manage to sleep - I kept thinking about how sad my life is... always locked up...

hi lonelyperson. i and i suspect many others share your feelings. for me it's
especially at the end of the day [evening of my life?] I find behind the
feeling is a belief that my life has beena waste and i have never been good
enough...distorted thinking.
I try to weed out the distortions and replace them with more truthful
beliefs like good things i've done, people i've helped and how the world is
maybe a little bit better because of me.
the more i work at it, the more i believe and the more it helps.
but it IS a rut and needs lots of loving persistence.

[lonelyperson92]

Thanks everyone for sharing your thoughts... you guys make me feel better
Stargeezer, you really have a good point there- thanks thanks thanks

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((lonleyperson92))))

Thank you for sharing how you are feeling. I am sorry you are feeling so low in a feeling of despair and loneliness. It is not a fun place to be. I understand. I too cannot sleep much at all and I write a lot.

Have you been to a doctors to get checked? Do you have a t to talk with? I think that would be something that could help you. Finding out what is going on and talking about what has you feeling this way.

I am sorry that your parents would not let you go outside. You need to socialize. Do you have friends or someone you trust IRL? Know we are here for you and listening. That we care and will walk with you as you work through this.

It is hard to feel so lonely. Sometimes I feel that way as I do not talk much except to myself. I do write a lot and my writing tells so much of where I am and how I feel. I sometimes have a hard time really telling others how I feel. But writing helps and in that I can share it or not. It is up to me.

But in writing it down, I get it out of my head and I am not holding it so close that it pulls me down. Do you have anything that you do to help yourself?

I am glad you shared with us how you were feeling. Please try to see someone about the moods you are having. It could be something that you could get help with.

Until then, please keep us informed on how you are doing. You are not alone. We can understand how you are feeling. We are here listening and keeping you in our thoughts.

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps

[lonelyperson92]

Thank you so much dps,

I just talked to my bf today and hopes that he at least understands what I'm going through. It's great that he doesn't suffered depression but in the same time, it hurts because he just doesn't get it.

Unfortunately, I don't have a therapist nor a doctor and I couldn't tell to my parents. They would think that I'm making a huge deal about this and obviously, they wouldn't believe me.