[Berries]

I have no outlet. Everything about me and my life is about MI. As I’ve said before—I am a great big ball of SICK.
Trouble is—I have no ambition or desire to do anything. I’ve lost interest in everything.
So, here I am – SICK =me
I’d like it to be ME is sick and a bunch of other stuff too. But it simply is not the case.
How depressing is that????

[Rohag]

((((((( Berries! )))))))

A wise lady once said,

Originally Posted by Amazonmom

I think you are a good person who is fun to talk with. I remember when I joined PC that I thought you were definitely one of the popular people. Lots of people here love you!

To whom was she referring?

Berries
Grand Poohbah
Member Since: Nov 2008
Location: in the glitch inside my brain
Posts: 1,759[+] (SuperPoster!)

Sitting on my end of this computer screen, I can only see a small fraction of the Berries-who-is, but that fraction testifies to a great soul behind the screen name.

Originally Posted by Berries

I’d like it to be ME is sick and a bunch of other stuff too.

That's a super goal! I suspect you are already on your way to that goal even if the circumstances and effects of illness currently prevent you from realizing it. But you feel like you're not, so toss out whatever's in you - we'll listen as helpfully as we can.

Dear Berries, may you never lack those willing to cheer on your thoughts and efforts!

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((( Berries ))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sending you lots of hugs hun

[idontknow13]

(((((((Berries)))))))

[Briester]

((((Berries))))

You have made such a difference to so many. I'm saddened to hear you're having these thoughts my friend. I DO know how terrible it feels to have lost the desire to do anything.



Chris

[turquoisesea]

There is more to you...

you can also add things to you. Simple things, maybe picking up a new favorite show, maybe finding a hobby... it takes effort but you CAN, there CAN be more

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( Berries )))))))))))))))))

[lonegael]

Berries = empathy+warmth+courage+wisdom+.....
Berries does not equal "sick"
Berries feels sick, Berries has a sickness, Berries is not a sickness.
OK, can you repeat this to yourself, dear? Over and over, if you can. Someday, all of us saying these things will help you to get the math to come out right. Take care, love yourself the way that we do.

[justfloating]

((((((((Berries)))))))))

I know where you're coming from. Sometimes I feel like I AM this illness instead of "I HAVE this illness." But an illness can't feel. An illness can't be sympathetic, empathetic, caring, kind, warm-hearted, frightened, discouraged, confused or hurt. An illness doesn't suffer, it causes suffering. An illness can't worry about being an illness. An illness has no humanity. An illness is pure cause and effect -- you are so much more. You are as multi-faceted as anyone else.

Maybe you could try not putting so much pressure on yourself to "be" anything. It helps for me, sometimes. I will wake up in the morning and think, "I don't want to do anything. I don't care about anything. I am not anything in particular, but that's okay, I'll just be." It sounds a little corny but if you're just ... THERE, instead of worrying about WHY you're there or what purpose it serves or how long you're going to stay, and just follow your impulses instead of any preconceived notions ... maybe you'll become something without even realizing it.