[PollyandLeo]

I have had borderline like symptoms for the past two years. I am in highschool right now and have experienced low self-esteem, obsession (clinging to one friend until I lose them or hate them, irritability, depression, food binges, anxiety and extreme jealousy. I also decide whether someone is a good person or a bad one just by looking at them and this causes me to have an extreme animosity towards certain people without ever speaking to them.

I dont want to go into more detail because I know I need help, but I just dont know how to ask. I am on Accutane right now and I dont want the medicine to be blamed for my problems. Accutane has boost my self-esteem and I really dont want to stop taking it. And I know it cant be the Accutane because I felt this way for at least a year before the treatment.

I've been able to hide the symptoms, but now they are becoming worse and harder to manage I'm afraid I'll do something drastic and I dont now wish to talk to a counselor. I just need a way to get more help with my problem it's truly getting worse and people are beginning to notice my depressed mood more.


Btw, I tried to post this in Q and A, but it wouldnt let me.

PollyandLeo
welcome to pc. If you are afraid you are going to do something drastic. You do need to seek IRL help. From a Dr or family member or a counselor.
I would forsure let your family know now how bad things are getting.

[phoenix47baby]

Dear Polly and Leo,

Welcome to PC. Congrats for writing out what is bugging you. Glad that the Accutane is working for you. It sound like there isn't going to be a quick fix for your disdain of other people and working it out satisfactorily. If you can, try to talk with a counselor or therapist about this before it gets worse. Can you speak with your parents? Good Luck. Sending warm hugs.