[beautifulmadness]

I have been depressed for about 3 months now and have lost the happiness that was in my heart. I constantly want to sleep as it is a time that I'm not thinking or feeling. I am about 6 months behind in school and trying to motivate myself to get it together and get back to it. Doing things I usually enjoy don't interest me any more, I've gained weight and I cannot get motivated to start walking.. I get myself pumped up about it every night but the next day never gets any closer to "doing " anything. I've been here before and I know one day it will get better.. I just wish the "one day" would hurry up and get here.. Thanks for "listening".. this site is the only place I feel I can express my feelings without someone saying that they understand when they have no clue..

beautifulmadness

sorry you are feeling so bad. Have you let the ppl in your real life know whats going on.
i know its hard when you think ppl do not understand. thou getting help irl would help some .
tc of you

[Naturefreak]

Beautifulmadness
It sounds like you have the typical symptoms of depression.
I agree with Muffy , it would be a good idea to seek out help in real life . When I first felt depressed I ignored it until it got so bad I ended up in the emergency crisis unit .
Don't let it go that far . If you feel you are not improving on your own you should discuss this with your family and seek help. I hope you feel better soon and take care.

[*Mindful]

Hi thank you for your friendship... i also suffer from BPD and i get depressed often but usuallly for short durations 2 to 3 hours and very intense almost makes me feel want to die... i understand my depression but i don't know how a long term depression would be like... it must be awful to endure!
Here is my experience... i lost a lot of things in my life friends money opportunities you name it i had it and lost it... so i see something on TV or come across a person that has what i use to have and lost and i get really sad because i am attached to stuff then i start dwelling on my loss and get really in a very dark mood and sick to my stomach the experience in very intense and stressful also when i feel presssured to do something or when things break down or when i make mistakes all those are triggers for my depression i really get down and hard on myself and blame myself for everything that goes wrong and i trained the people around me to blame me too... so i am creating this reality for myself... today i heard a talk about the law of attraction that what we have in our life is what we attract to ourself so maybe i should start to attract positive things and control my negative reactions to things and be more loving and forgiving toward myself and others!
I hope that would help my dear and beautiful new friend

Originally Posted by beautifulmadness

I have been depressed for about 3 months now and have lost the happiness that was in my heart. I constantly want to sleep as it is a time that I'm not thinking or feeling. I am about 6 months behind in school and trying to motivate myself to get it together and get back to it. Doing things I usually enjoy don't interest me any more, I've gained weight and I cannot get motivated to start walking.. I get myself pumped up about it every night but the next day never gets any closer to "doing " anything. I've been here before and I know one day it will get better.. I just wish the "one day" would hurry up and get here.. Thanks for "listening".. this site is the only place I feel I can express my feelings without someone saying that they understand when they have no clue..

[ThePainNeverDies]

beautifulmadness,

as Babysteps said, you need to find some help irl and not leave until it's too late. I did that and also ended up in the emergency crisis unit because I felt so desperate that I could find no other way out of it but to end my life.

That is not a good plan. It just causes things to be worse in the end, whether you live or die.

Please talk to people irl and get some talking therapy and if needed, meds to help you through this. You know you will get through this soon, but you need to get some help with getting through it. You're experiencing the tpical symptoms of depression and if you go to your dr with these symptoms, he/she will be able to help you to find something that helps you through it.

I hope this has helped you some. Please don't leave it too late

[Berries]

(((((((((((beautifulmadness)))))))))))

I understand.

[headintheclouds6]

By joining this forum and letting people know how you're feeling, you're already taking the steps to make changes in your life. Life is too short to be suffering like you are. Do you think you can take the steps to seek help in real life? Ask yourself, "What would I have to lose?"