[ap337]

Dear all,

Please help me with you advice. Every year I begin an inevitable descent into depression. I have not been formally diagnosed as I have I have not sought medical attention for this.
My mother seems as a a different person when she takes medication for her own depression and a friend of mine becomes extremely subdued when she takes her own, and for these and other factors I do not want to seek medical attention if I can, however, year upon year I become worse. I can look ahead and, from experience, consign months of my life to despair.
My mood is unstable and no sooner than I have crawled out of one pit, some small event puts me into another. I am a postgraduate student studying a course that is something it did not profess to be, and I loathe it. I'm sorry, I realise that I'm going on a little now. I wanted to help others here, but I do not know what I can say to cheer anyone up.

Please help. Sometimes when things go wrong I feel the urge to tear at my skin. I do not want to harm myself and I want to live, and I want to feel better so I can enjoy life. I will quit typing now. Thanks.

A

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Ap337!

Your apprehensions concerning seeking help - particularly if it must come in the form of medication - are understandable. I've been on medications for years. I realize I need them, but they haven't improved my life so much as prevented me from crashing.

If you do reach the point where you feel comfortable seeking help, remember you are in charge; make the doctor or therapist understand your fears concerning drugs. They should work with you, they should inform you (or, you should ask directly) about all possible medication side-effects and what constitutes a therapeutic dosage.

Originally Posted by ap337

I am a postgraduate student studying a course that is something it did not profess to be, and I loathe it.

Can you do anything about this situation? This is not a rhetorical question: In the long run, will it benefit you to get the kind of help that could make you more effective in completing something you loathe? Do you hope not to loathe it in the long run?

In any event, I believe it is in your best interests to seek counsel. Get good information about what therapeutic paths are open to you.

Hello, ap337. Medications and therapy are tools employed to alleviate symptoms that cause distress. Frequently, it takes some time to discover the right tools to use. And even if you do find tools that work, there is no guarantee they will continue to do so. At some point different tools may prove more beneficial

Much of what we do to make our lives better involves trial and error; but then life for me will always be a work in process.

Having said that, I have benefited from the tools I have used. Therefore, I am of the opinion you should give these tools a try.

Good luck.

[BeautifullyMistaken]

Originally Posted by ap337

Dear all,

Please help me with you advice. Every year I begin an inevitable descent into depression. I have not been formally diagnosed as I have I have not sought medical attention for this.
My mother seems as a a different person when she takes medication for her own depression and a friend of mine becomes extremely subdued when she takes her own, and for these and other factors I do not want to seek medical attention if I can, however, year upon year I become worse. I can look ahead and, from experience, consign months of my life to despair.
My mood is unstable and no sooner than I have crawled out of one pit, some small event puts me into another. I am a postgraduate student studying a course that is something it did not profess to be, and I loathe it. I'm sorry, I realise that I'm going on a little now. I wanted to help others here, but I do not know what I can say to cheer anyone up.

Please help. Sometimes when things go wrong I feel the urge to tear at my skin. I do not want to harm myself and I want to live, and I want to feel better so I can enjoy life. I will quit typing now. Thanks.

A

Welcome to the boards. I must say--Even if you don't want to take medication, you should at least get diagnosed and eventually try therapy. It could be very beneficial to you. What makes you the most depressed? That's good that even though you feel the urge to harm yourself that you don't.

[ap337]

Thank you for your replies.

[FeelingHopeful]

Aww. Ap 337 Im here to talk if you need a friend.