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#1
Nov 26, 2009, 06:23 PM
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I started Abilify with Paxil a month or so ago..maybe a little longer. And, I'm starting to feel better. Kind of. I just don't know what to do with myself now and it's starting to get to me...
I don't know if i was or am trying to make up for all the time I lost to depression or if I'm starting to feel better and have energy. But, I can't concentrate on anything. I started about 5 or more art projects I can't bring myself to finish. Yet I've started another project after those. I made 2 bracelets. This is all in a few days..not all at once. But if i'm not making something, I feel like I should be doing something. I just don't know what. And the problem is, I can't bring myself to do anything now. I want to. I have the energy...kind of. But I need to force myself to do stuff. And I just can't do that right now. I don't know why. I feel guilty unless i'm doing something. It's ridiculous and i don't know what to do about it.... |
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#2
Nov 26, 2009, 06:36 PM
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Ooooo! My situation is not exactly like yours, but I know about having energy (or at leasts short bursts of energy) and not having the ability to focus it. I wish I had an answer for us.
 
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#3
Nov 26, 2009, 10:09 PM
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What you are experiencing is not ridiculous. Depression is such an insidious and perilous scourge. When I have had similar experiences I found my perfectionism to be an impediment. Getting started was the key. I made an agreement with myself I would do a task for fifteen minutes to start with. Many times, I found myself doing more.
If challenging yourself to work on tasks in more manageable segments does not help, my thought is your medications may need some fine tuning. I expect your therapist will have some ideas that will help you too. Thankfully, you are getting better. May you find a way to get over this bump in the road. Please continue to post so we know how you are doing. Good luck! |
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Nov 27, 2009, 02:51 AM
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(((((Cafegrrl))))) I know the feeling too well. Uuuuuuhm, if you want , you can try checking out the Bipolar page and see if there is anything you recognize? I mean, I get dysphoric manias (or really, hyper depression) and it sounds kind of like you feel the way I do when it starts. It is really frustrating, and I hope that you have contact with a good p-doc who can keep an eye on your symptoms. Huggs!
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Nov 28, 2009, 09:56 PM
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I keep a list I call the "Icky" List and I have to do 3 or more each week. Stupid things like calling the cable company to fix the TV, things I know will require something of me (like staying home for hours waiting, which I'll do but just not if someone is "making me" do it). I'm 48 and not a 3 year old, but you'd never know it.
So far the Icky List trick has tricked me into performing some tasks that would've never gotten done and in the end, I can see a little bit of my former self in it. Maybe that helps? |
 lonegael, theave, TheByzantine, thunderbear
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Nov 29, 2009, 09:25 AM
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I have been making stuff too. I made a necklace yesterday. I also feel like I have to force myself to do stuff, even stuff I really like. And I WANT to do stuff. It's sort of a weird position to be in, emotionally. I have the drive to start doing stuff, but no carry through at all. I just can't focus my energies for a very good length of time.
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Nov 29, 2009, 06:25 PM
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THAT'S EXACTLY where I am. I now have about 7 collage/mixed media things started but nothing finished. And I WANT to finish this stuff and other things. Just CAN'T for whatever stupid reasons/feelings. I hate this. It's like being trapped within yourself.... |
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#8
Nov 30, 2009, 12:08 PM
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I'm on abilify too. I tried forcing myself to do things this weekend, but couldn't stick with anything. I just felt like I didn't have the patience, but I was tired just laying around. Like I don't know what to do with myself either.
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#9
Nov 30, 2009, 01:14 PM
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I STILL don't know what to do with myself either. I decided to check out the Sunday paper for jobs...nothing. So there's nowhere to send my stupid resume. I made some bracelets to try to sell. I've laid around for hours. I've got to go to work soon. Dont want to but that'll be something to do.... |
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#10
Dec 05, 2009, 08:56 AM
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vsh, the icky list is something i need to do, but i get so scared and overwhelmed thinking about even the smallest things that i don't feel like i could do anything on it.
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#11
Dec 05, 2009, 04:46 PM
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((((cafegrrrl))))
Thinking of you and sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.  dps
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