What's the point...

I had planned on writing out another elaborate post about my depression, how I haven't bought a single christmas present yet. How instead of healing my wounds are festering. About how stale and pointless my life has become, but I don't see the point. I can write posts until my fingers break but unless I actually do something, nothing will change. I just... I don't know how to make that change, and feeling like I'm not in control only adds to feelings of despair. Weeks fade into my memory with not a single event to hold onto. Hearts broken beyond repair, brain can't produce a happy thought. I just want to be free of all of this.

If you are not getting professional help, perhaps you should be.

try just telling how u feel to a person, they can help u more that you think

Hi, A_Long_ways!

Personal Opinion: Writing about your feelings and depression is doing something. Posting helps you work out a vocabulary you can use with caregivers to explain what you are experiencing.

Feelings of not being in control are unpleasant and contribute to despair. Keep posting; you may find a sense of control by constructing a framework of satisfying words to contain what's going on in your life.

Rohag is right, ((((((A Long ways)))))) Please keep up the posting. It will also help you to see what's pothering in words in front of you. Often that can help put things in perspective. Huggs, dear.