I'm so tired......

My joy is gone. My spirit is gone. I forget the true sound of laughter.
I am scared and alone, and thank you for letting me join this site.

Welcome to PC. I hope this site can help you find some of the things you've lost.

(((((palmdalegirl)))))))
I am so sorry you feel this way, I have been there, hopefully it will not last.
Keep posting here, you will find a lot of caring and understanding people.
Take good care of yourself

I was so glad to find this site too! It was the only one I could find that was still running and accepting new members!
I can relate to what you said. It's hard to lose those things and wonder what the heck happened.

I hope you will stick around here awhile and I hope you will find a little bit of solace.

((((((((( palmdalegirl )))))))))

I like your infamous saying. It gives me hope. Thank you.

It's not what I lost....it is what I have never had. Shattered dreams are very painful.

I'm sorry.

Thank you for taking the time to care. I have never had that before, and it feels very good. Thanks.

((((((((((((palmdalegirl)))))))))))))


Welcome to PC. I'm glad you posted. You'll find lots of support here. I hope you keep us updated on how you're doing.

Scared? Palmdalegirl, what is taking away your sense of safety? Feel free to ignore the question if you find it too personal or triggering.

I should not be scared, as I walk with the Lord. That should always help me to stay positive. I know that much at least. I am just so beat down by 30 years of physical and mental abuse, that I fear I am just not worthy of anything good in life. If I was.....why has nothing good ever found me?

((((((((((((palmdalegirl))))))))))))))). I heard you about the disappearance of joy; about the fatigue and loss of the meaning of laughter; about the fear and lonliness. I'm sure that we mean different things in the word spirit, and I can understand that you have lost your energy. Have you had a good physical exam, found a Therapist or talked with a psychiatrist, who might be able to prescribe treatment for you? The right treatment can help you remember why we say "good morning" to each other. That is how I describe my first response to [tricyclic] antidepressant therapy. For fatigue, I am currently taking a vitamin supplement which supports the adrenal gland. Adrenal fatigue is rarely diagnosed by doctors and may be difficult to diagnose. But the vitamin therapy truly seems to be helping me. That's a personal thing, and not a recommendation for anything - simply an offering of hope for eventual answers to our lack of energy. How long have you been feeling this way, and can you target any event[s] which may have contributed to your mood. Do not give up. Instead, spend your time posting and questioning here, making friends, supporting others and seeking for the right treatment for yourself. Diet and exercise [yada, yada, and, no, I don't follow my own advice] seem to be quite important to good mood, as does the company of friendly others. This you should find here. Seek companionship in real life as well, if you can. Concentrating on the problems of others is often helpful. Feel free to PM me if I can be of any help at all. billieJ