[azkaban]

For the past five months, I'm nothing but sad, lonely, or emotionless. I either cry constantly for weeks at a time or go about my days like a robot. I never know when which side will hit me, and it makes it hard to go about my day. I've had at least half a dozen times where I have "called in sick" to work or meeting with an excuse that I am with a cold or a flu when I have just wanted to lay in bed and not do anything. I haven't missed any classes for this reason...yet. I have always willed myself to go to classes at least, but I'm afraid this will start to change as well.

I am so sick of this. I want to be happy. The only time I get a break is when my boyfriend comes to visit me at my university for three days, but then I'm worse after he leaves since I realize how alone I am. Sure, I have a friend here or there but I still feel so alone.

I am seriously considering looking into anti-depressants as my therapist suggested. I just need something to keep me afloat. I'm afraid they won't work or make me dependent...

): I have been crying all day and can't even make it to the communal kitchen to heat up some food without bursting into tears. I just want to be better. I want a glimmer of hope and happiness.

[Ascension]

It may be a good idea to consider an anti-depressant. But I would recommend being proactive. Get help now in whatever way you can because if you have more complications (for example lose your job or your grades suffer because you are drowning so to speak) then it will just compound things. I wish you all the best and keep us posted, we care.

Give the antidepressants a try. What you are doing now is not working. Why not take a chance on getting better?

Good luck.

[idontknow13]

I understand how you feel, I was there not too long ago. I feel much better now and I feel I owe it to the fact that I have a great therapist and I followed the doctor's advice about antidepressants. I dont like the idea of depending on pills but there doesnt seem to be another option and if my heart was sick I would take the heart medicine as prescribed!
I hope you feel better soon! You are not alone, keep posting, you will find a lot of understanding and caring people here.

[msolson81]

I'm sorry that you are going through this.

If you do try anti-depressants, it may provided you some relief, but it often takes time to find the right med and right dose. Even if you do start taking them, it doesn't necessarily mean you will be on them the rest of your life.

I like what idontknow13 said about having a heart condition and taking meds for that. Depression is a medical condition that has some very real physical components and some people do find relief in meds.

I wish you the best (((azkaban)))

How are your doing, azkaban?