I hurt

I hurt inside. My chest, a physical manifestation of my emotional pain. I feel depressed and alone. I feel like there is no point. I just want to sleep. I want to hurt myself. It comes and goes. I wish it would just go away.

That is exactly how I feel. Exactly. It really sucks and I'm so sorry you have to feel this too. But know that you're not alone and that somehow people have made it through this before.
Here for you if you need someone.

Iam sorry you are going through a rough time right now and are you seeing a doctor about this and you are not alone we are here for you huggs

When it eases off you enough for you to get out of bed try going for a walk or doing something active because I find that really helps me. Exercising is the best thing for me to do when I find the energy, but that is the very hardest thing.

Try to build a social net to fall on when you've hit a spot like this and when you're not so down maybe seek a free counselor or something to find other outlets for your pain. Going through it alone will ultimately end badly.

Hi, Googley!

Question: Does your sleeping help with/diminish the self-harm urges?

Googley
I feel for you my friend. It is just horrible what you are going through , but I don't think hurting yourself is a good idea. Please don't do that. Take care

Hi Googley,
when we feel hurt physically or emotionally, all we want is, for it to go away. When it doesn't we get frustrated, angry and start to feel hopeless. When you say you want to hurt yourself - are you talking about SI or the other S word? Have you told your doctor you're feeling alot worse?

The most important thing is to let your doctor know and discover which self help methods work for you during difficult times. Most of all, you need be patient and with that you might need to endure and accept this down stage you're going through. This doesn't mean you say "I give up and I'll never get better". It means you will be patient and take good care by keeping your doctor informed and using your little bag of emergency coping tricks to feel better. Try not to let the pain convince you that you must find relief by hurting yourself or not wanting to live. You're welcome to let your frustrations and feelings out here. You're in my thoughts and prayers that you'll feel relief from your pain.

(((((((((googley)))))))))
Me too my friend, my too....
Lets be lonely together.

Hey. Don't know if this will help you, but I lay in my bed (a freshly made bed, with a few soft blankets and lots of layers is beautiful), and listen to some relaxing, emotional, really beautiful music.
That tends to take the edge off for me sometimes.
Hope you find something to help you x

((((((googley)))))))
I hope you are feeling better...My thoughts are with you

Yes: sleeping does help with the urges. It seems to sometimes "reset" my inner state to something more numb that at least doesn't feel as bad.

Thank you Babysteps. I am feeling better right now. I just needed to get it out. Thank you for the concern.

Thanks Jacq. Being lonely together sounds great.

I am feeling a little better. The intense pain and SI urges are gone today.

Thank you all for caring. That means so much.

((((((((((((((((( Googley ))))))))))))))))))

I feel completely and exactly the same. I used to think it was suitable punishment for me, but now I just want it to stop. PM me if you want to talk.x

Since you already have a lot of good advice, i offer my wish that I could come and sit with you just talk about whatever, knitt on my sweater, and let the hours go by with you so that you really can see that I , and a lot of others here, would dearly like to soothe your pain. The hurt that comes from inside is the worst there is, I think, HUGGGGS.

Hey Googley, Like you and many here I know the feeling. I hope you find the inner strength to transcend your depession. Depression is such a painful thing. Sometimes when I get depressed I wish someone would just beat the hell out of me so I can feel physical pain over the depression. I know that a physical beating would not be healthy, I am just trying to express how how painful depression is to me. I hope you can cope. Peace - Dennis