Stuck

I really dont know what to post anymore. I always feel the same. Horrible. Nothing changes. I have chronic suicidal thoughts that landed me in hte hospital 6 times this year. I just got out and feel like they let me go too early. But i just cant do it again. Im sorry for postiing the same things but this is where im at. Im trapped in a deep, dark, cold abyss. I feel this must be hell it cant get any worse. Nomatter what i do, who im with i feel the same. Im physically and mentally exhausted trying to keep my head busy. I dont know what else to do, so im posting. Sorry for rambling. I have a therapist i see 2x week. Im in a day program. This depression just isnt breaking.i feel lonely in my little life raft.sorrry

Hi, I wish I could say something like I know how you feel or it will get better but that is so trivial and not always true. The only thing I can promise is that you aren't alone and if you need to talk I'm sure no one, I know I don't, mind you saying whatever might make you fell a bit better. At least if you are posting hun that means you really don't want to be alone and the best thing is...you are still here. Big hugs hun

I hear you!! Are you on any meds?? How long have you been on them?? If they aren't working tell your shrink.. He may need to make a change or up the dosage..I too suffer from depression amongst other problems..They have me on seven meds..MY AD is at the max dose and seems to be helping.. What does your therapist say?? Has she/he gone over coping methods with you?? Well I wish you all the best!!

Hi, Chrise! Looking through your recent posts I find myself in awe of the fact you manage to keep on going day by day and accomplish what you do, even if your accomplishments seem small to you. Despite care and compliance, your burden is crushing. I offer my respect.

I hope your depression lifts soon. I know how painful it can be and many others here also go through it. Never apologize for posting. There is nothing wrong with it. Someone may say something that will make a difference. You never know. Peace - Dennis

chrise, my suggestion is to be adamant in telling your professional team what they are trying is not working and that you need help NOW. Maybe you have to see your therapist every day for a time. Maybe a different med is indicated. If you do have to go inpatient again, tell them you do not want to be rushed out the door again. Be assertive in getting to the bottom of this.

Good luck.