[DiNozzo]

i just couldn't get it, i tried and tried but i just saw numbers on the pc screen that didnt make sense, i asked for help to explain it but i didnt hear it.
with each passing hour the stress levels rose and rose until i was just about ready to quit.
i stared at the screen until i felt like i was shrinking and the darkness of my soul was closing in on me, i wanted to scream, to run away....i wanted to cry.

but no, i sat there and waited til the end of shift then came home

maybe tomorrow will be better

maybe

[Rohag]

Hi, DiNozzo!

I'd agree - you've given a vivid description of a "bad day." I assume you're talking about a day at work, yes? Is this a job you've held for only a short time, still learning?

Please feel free to completely ignore my questions. The last thing I want to do is add any type of stress to your life.

Did the day stop being "bad" once you got home?

[DiNozzo]

its just a new part of my job and one thats just been thrust upon me without in depth explanation, but i try to do the best i can, for myself, but it wasnt happening today.
so frustrated with it all.
i hardly spoke to anyone today and i felt so alone.
the say theres a light at the end of the tunnel, but lately its been a curve for me, but as i said, maybe tomorrow.............

[shezbut]

DiNozzo,

Ugh! It sounds horrible

I recommend that you talk with your supervisor in a friendly, and lightly apologetic manner. Try very hard not to put yourself down in front of others.

Instead, say, "I understand that I need to do X, but I am a little fuzzy on Y. Could I please write down clarification of (Y) this task for me to refer to?"

Keeping the misery to yourself is really alienating, which can become a huge monster in office politics. Nip it it the bud, now. Try hard not to be hyper-sensitive, and be honest with your co-workers. Explain that once you understand X, you'll get the task done quickly and properly.

Best wishes to you, DiNozzo.

How is today going, DiNozzo?

[lonegael]

((((Di Nozzo))))) My life's history with numbers! How did you know??? How are things going today, could you calm down enough to sleep some? Huggs, and i hope you are having a better day.

[DiNozzo]

today turned out better, i went in with a clear head regarding the work and after a while it hit me.
it was noticed that i wasnt too happy yesterday and i was left alone from idle chit chat and stuff, but atleast today i was able to cope and just get on with it all.

Glad things were somewhat better. Please continue to post so we know how you are doing.

[DiNozzo]

well the day was ok work wise, i came i saw then i just got on with it. trouble is i am losing my GF, havent been told yet but being middle aged you get to see the signs plus its a long distance relationship so i am not in control, i just know that i am being given the reasons to make it easier for me to see it coming.
thing is she was the only reason i dragged my arse out of my severe depression to get where i am now and i can feel myself slipping backwards.
i suppose i should see this as a challenge to my sanity, if it wasnt for alcohol i would be sinking, i need to find myself again.

[amante]

I'm glad you had a better day at work, but I'm sorry that your GF is leaving.
I hope that things turn around for you and you are able to keep from falling back into severe depression. Sending hugs to you.

Perhaps it is time to see a therapist? Alcohol can get to be a problem too.

[lonegael]

The glogg can feel really good at the time, dear, but if you use it too much it will actually contribute to the depression. Do you have anyone IRL to go to? any other coping strategies? Huggs, but kind of worried.