why this pain??

i thought this move would be great, i duno if its from the long trip over or what it is. the last four days i have felt like crying an tonight its getting worse, where im laying in bed almost in tears an thoughts of suicide or even self harm are coming to mind. but when i think about it all i can picture in my head are the photos my biological mother showed me of my stepdad an what he did to himself to try an make me feel bad as he was going to go to jail an its why he did it.. i duno what to do.

I would be on an emotional roller coaster after a move. Even one that you wanted and looked forward to. Moving stirs up all kinds of emotions, both positive and negative. Take care of yourself. Make sure you are eating right, getting enough sleep. Keeping stress down. Don't try to do too much at once. You need time to adjust. Be gentle with yourself. You will start feeling better again.

i completely agree with pomegranate. moving is tough on everyone, even in the best of situations. it is so stressful, so strange to up and leave your home for a new place.

i am so sorry you have been feeling so bad. i wish i could give you a giant hug right now!!! but this message i guess is the best i can do

please keep me updated or PM me or anything at anytime, alright? it'll all get better.

I understand. I have beenn like that for a while now. I don't want to see anybody or do anything. The pain in your chest and stomach. The spinning in your head telling you that you would rather be dead. The thinking that SI will make you feel better. I don't know what to say to make it better for you. All I can say is that, I am going into the hospital Wednesday. I was actually beginning to listen to what my head was telling me and the pain. I came close to Suicide and I know that I have people to live for. And I am pretty sure you do too.

tearyTake it easy , please

i thought i would wake up feeling better but instead i feel worse.. i hate it all

Thanks for posting this. It's nice to hear about other people's positive decisions in the midst of a struggle...in the midst of a dark tunnel with no light at the end. Sometimes I think we loose faith that we'll ever see that light again.

I agree with that but sometimes it makes things worse.
The only reason I am going in tomorrow is because I have to. I get afraid that I might end it. and I have felt that way for a while. So I am fixing the problem. Or trying to. I think I should be able to admitt to myself when I can/ can't hold on. I hope others don't let it go too far before they realized the damage. So wish me luck I go in tomorrow. I will let yoou know how it goes when I get back.