[cutbuddie]

I dont know really what to do with life. i think that i wont be able to fully recover because ive had no closure for lost of things, my cats death, and when i was bullied when i was a kid. Well, my cat because i just couldn't let go of him because he was always there for me when i was bullied, he knew my mood and was always there no matter what and also because right after he died my parents gave me no time to mourn, they just got a new cat a week after. I really felt hurt. But that was more than a year ago. I still really feel sad and cry at times because i can never get him back. I cry alot about it. Ive had no closure with that and now dealing with recovering with rape is very hard with that side note atttched. its really scary. I am really trying hard to recover, i really am. But also dealing with bipolar is also very though. i really love my boyfriend, i wish he was here for me though <3

[Rohag]

Hi, Cutbuddie! I'm sorry for all you are facing, and for the pressure to recover. I'm just about positive pressure to "get better" at one point in my life did quite the opposite.

My condolences on the passing of your feline friend. I still carry a unique sadness for each one of the dogs with whom I formed a bond over the course of my life. Each one was an individual; none could replace another. The pain dulls with time but never completely fades, at least for me.

May many little joys come your way and bring some sunshine.

[Catherine2]

cutbuddie, hi...
You've been trying to deal with so very much, and I hope some of it eases soon.

My experience with my pets are the same as yours and Rohag...I needed time to grieve for each one of them.
They were my confidantes...

Dealing with rape and the aftermath is one of the hardest thiings for us to work through...I hope you are in therapy or at least in some type of support group. My support group was my greatest source of encouragement but also where I felt safe.

Please keep posting..

Catherine