[starrina]

Why do people lie my case worker
told me and my T that she would ring me
today to see how I am since I have
been having a hard time of late
did she ring NO why because I am
not important enough to warrant it
a couple of days ago we got caught shoplifting
(me and my alters)
I rang to talk to my T about it and how I was
feeling but he was not there so I spoke with the case
worker and guess what she told everyone else hows
that for breaking a confidence a trust it takes
a long time to earn a trust but just a second to break it
and well while I am mad as heck she did not do
as she said she would I am not sure it would have
been a plesant call at any rate.
I feel so down and I am hurting it is not the first time
this week someone has broken my trust and I could not tell them
that is what they have done instead I just decided not to go see
them I could not face them and not have lost my cool.
I want to yell at the world right now I want to scream out
and beg for this merry-go-round ride to stop but I cannot
even do that instead I cry some out wardly but a lot inwardly
some people should never have been parents and I should
never have been born.

[Rohag]

Hi, Starrina! I'm sorry you're going through this tough time.

If I read your post correctly,

1. your case worker, who knew you were in the midst of a difficult time, failed to call you as promised, and
2. the case worker (same person?) revealed confidential information about you to others.

You also say,

Originally Posted by starrina

...it is not the first time
this week someone has broken my trust and I could not tell them
that is what they have done...

I would love to tell you to "get assertive" and confront your case worker and therapist about all of this. But I'm beaten down, too. I regularly swallow disappointments and hesitate displaying anything negative to my caretakers. I can do so only after careful mental preparation and summoning all my focus. Even then I feel guilty for speaking up for myself.

Here's hoping you can find some way of effectively conveying to these people your disappointment in them.

[1flagwriter]

Starrina,

What are your plans? Please post...very interesting...

[starrina]

I have no plans my mind is blank all
I see and feel is pain do I have the right to be
this upset? do I have the right to expect confidentionality?
heck if I know all I know is I am broken right now
I do not know what will be if one more thing happens
No I have no plans at least not right now.