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Glad I have T this week. I just want her to fix it. Ok, sort of kidding. I know I have to fix it. I am just so tired of just getting by. Everything makes me feel sensitive and exhausted. I am thankful to have someone wonderful like my partner, but I also get so jealous. True, she had years of serious depression, but she is doing so much better now and she's able to be in grad school and have her grad school friends and colleagues. It's like things aren't hurrying up enough with me. I want to have my self-esteem back already, I want to have energy. I want it to be OK that I can be angry at my parents and don't have to take what they say about me to heart. I wish I could just let that s**t go. Everything would move so much faster then...

Hi again, Elana. Be patient with yourself. Your recovery will come, if you continue treatment and be patient. Try not to compare yourself with others, b/c that will get you nowhere. We are all different, as you know.

I hope you feel better very soon!

I agree with 1flagwriter, Elena - comparing your progress (or lack thereof) with others is a dangerous game to play because it sets you up for negative feelings that only serve to fuel your depression. We all grow, change, develop at different paces because or our inidividual abilities and circumstances. Instead of being jealous of the progress your partner has made, try to view it instead as a reason to hope for a better future for yourself. As for what your parents say about you, I don't know the background so I really can't comment specifically. However, letting go of certain things is not always an easy task; it's a process of letting go again and again over a period of time. You may never be rid of it completely, but in time its impact on you can be decreased. Hope you are feeling better soon.lynn09

I agree with two two posts prior to mine. Don't compare your progress to anyone else's. It's not a race, nor is it a competition. Go at your own pace and you'll see that everyone's results are different.

Hello, Elana05. You can only go as fast as you can go. Cannot be jerry-rigging what needs to get done.