UPDATE -The Continuing Saga.........

((((Lynn))))

Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and hoping you are doing okay. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

Thanks for the shoulder and your kind words (((Hippie))) and for keeping me in your thoughts - means a lot.

Thanks (((googley))). I agree - I would never feel comfortable knowing that woman was involved - I have valid reason to doubt and distrust her - I just hope she behaves more responsibly in the future for the sake of other patients.

Thanks (((dps))) - I treasure your friendship and so appreciate your gentle hugs and loving thoughts - can never have too many of those!

I'm okay, guys. I wrote a note back my new ex-T and thanked him for reading my e-mail and responding honestly. I feel better that the matter is resolved. I also feel better knowing that even though I got blind-sided and really triggered and re-traumatized by this experience after taking 3 years for me to even attempt to reach out again, I survived - the universe did not implode and I'm still intact.

I have to give a ton of credit and thanks to the support I have received from so many members of my PC family since I joined last August - I have learned a great deal from and been strengthened by my interactions with you all - I think the outcome of this experience would not have been quite as positive otherwise.

Tomorrow is a new day, and I will begin again to do what I can to make some headway in bringing about a positive resolution to my situation - somehow it doesn't seem as overwhelming and intimidating as before. I'm sure I am going to encounter more rough patches in the future, but at least I know that I do have reliable support here when I stumble and fall. I'll let you know how it goes.lynn09

(((((lynn)))) and keep us updated, talk anything out you need to, we're here to listen

Sorry about the T, hoping you can move on to something better

Thanks (((((sea)))) - I'm going to continue to update this thread for a while in the hope that others in similar situations may be able to benefit from the dialogue taking place here.

(((((Everyone))))) FYI - in case anyone else is having similar difficulties with this company, this is a link to an article about my former long-term disability insurance carrier, First UNUM/Provident; they illegally terminated my benefits in 2001, owe me about $80,000+, and were instrumental in creating my current medical and legal situation. Other articles regarding this company and its "bad faith" practices can also be accessed on the site.

http://www.lawyersandsettlements.com/articles/13792/interview-unum-insurance-provident-first.html?ref=newsletter_bca_interview-unum-insurance-provident-first

lynn09

((((Lynn09))))

My friend just wanted to say we love you and we are proud of you for standing ground and for reaching out. Sometimes things happen for a reason and we do not know those reasons until later. Maybe this happened seeing this person again to give you the refire to continue on in getting right done and seeing that you are strong and it cannot keep you down. I am proud to call you my friend. Know that no matter what we are here walking this path with you. You are no longer alone. And though sometimes it seems as though you are, close your eyes and just feel all the hugs and love surrounding you. You are worth it my friend. Still sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

(((Lynn09)))
Feeling any better?

(((((dps))))) Thank you for your continued support and presence in my life - it means so much, My Friend.

(((((Babysteps))))) Thank you for stopping by to check up on me. Yes, I'm feeling so much better, and I hope that you are, too.

This has been a great experience for me! I have been in agony for the past 11 years being ill and trying to deal with all of this mess, and especially the last 3 years. I have been triggered over and over again, especially since joining PC last August, and this incident with the new T was the ultimate - just about the worst thing that could have happened. Yet, all of it was precisely what I needed to experience in order to identify what triggers me and understand why, to give me the opportunity to get input and support from others even in the process of providing support to others myself, to change my perspective on my situation and my approach to it, and to develop the coping skills I need to function so that I can get this mess resolved and deal with the stress until then.

I know I still have a long way to go and much more to learn. I also know and that my PTSD is going to get triggered and I'm going to continue to experience depressive episodes - but I also now know that with the support of my PC family members I won't have to go it alone and I'll be better able to get through the tough times.lynn09

((((Lynn)))))