I need some help

Hi, I'm new here and I have a problem, for almost my whole life, people hated me. I'm extremely depressed and I took some quizzes and it proved my depression. I don't want to call hotlines or talk to anyone verbally so I'm turning here for help. I need help in any way. I often feel I want to just die or run away and maybe people will be sorry for me, I feel like im a f*gg*t that no one likes. So im asking for some help here.

(((((((((((((Jeff)))))))))))))

Welcome to PC.

I have had the pleasure of meeting you tonight in chat. I think that the fact that you recognize that you may have a problem with depression is the first step. I know that you dont like to verbally talk to people about this and that is ok. Writing is a great tool. Like I told you, I find it easier to write things as I can express myself better.

I would definitly stay invloved in basketball. Outside activity is a good way to get help with depression. I would also limit your activity with your games. Sometimes isolating for hours and hours isnt very good for you. Another thing, stop smoking the pot Jeff. You are far to young to get mixed up in that. There are much better things, healthier things that you can do. It's not "cool" as some people think.
I would try to talk to your mom about your depression. If that is not possible, maybe a school couselor or someone like that.

It is also good to post here. Venting is good. Expressing is good. Please post as often as needed.

Well jeff, I am glad you found this place and hope that your needs can be met here. If you have any problems, questions or whatever, you can PM anyone for assistance.

Take care (TC) ,

Jen

I can understand not wanting to call and talk to someone. This is a great place to get support. Why do you call yourself such a harsh word? I'm here when you need to talk. PM me any time you like.

Welcome to the boards Jeff - no one is here to judge so feel free to post anytime.

I know how you feel about not wanting to TALK about your problem. I'm the same way, and I find it almost impossible to get things out verbally. When I write or type, I can take my time and get things just right. Also, there's been times in the past that I believed that the only way to get people to notice me would be to do something very bad to myself. Now I'm glad that I never had the guts to do anything.

I know it's hard to talk to people, but have you talked to your family doc about it? Sometimes it's easier to get things out when the person you're telling isn't so close to the situation. And you know that your family doc is all about trying to help you out.

If you ever want to chat, I'm online ALL the time. If you're on AIM, hit me up for a talk, or send me a message here. I'd be more than happy to talk, and heaven knows I could use some more people to chat with too.

Take care of yourself.
~Sondra

Hi Jefff, I am pretty new here also. This is my first time seeing a therapist and it wasn't as hard as I thought so far.
I think some people make friends very easily and some don't . There is nothing worse then feeling like you have no friends, but here I am sure you will make friends and get some help with getting your feelings out.
I am sure people don't hate you, just maybe your personalities clash or something. But I have had that feeling about a few people in certain places in my life.
Just that we didn't jel and I felt left out till I became more assertive. I was very shy and still am a bit after all these years.
You can talk here and you have friends here so hang in there and (((((hugs))))

I know people hate me because they say they do dusty and they punk me around and make fun of me. Thanks anyways, I actually feel accepted, which is rare for me. Thanks for the support I will come here often.

Hi Jeff,
Welcome to PC you will love it here....everyone is so supportive and encouraging and noone judges at all....hope to see you around the forum more....post away we are here for ya...

Hey Jeff,
I was glad to hear you felt good about being here. This is a very open place to tell what you want and get help and ideas from others.
Keep posting your feelings and why you think they tell you these people bully you.
Sometimes people just say things in anger because they don't have anything better to say. Possibly they don't understand your feelings?
I hope you talk here and do come back, we are all in need here of many things.

Welcome to the site......Depression in itself affects the way we perceive ourselves and others...My guess is that others are not so much repelled by you as just quizzical, as they don't understand what you are dealing with......A good therapist is essential.....and you'll find some great folks here too....Hang in there and Keep working on getting better....As long as you're trying...You Will!

Grace