[BatsAndButterflies]

I've been so frustrated lately and just plain sad... I don't really like talking about my feelings and stuff to my friends... they joke around saying i'm gonna explode one day from just repressing crap. I try to just let it out and cry, but I can't just let myself cry for some reason... It just won't come. And if I do cry I feel stupid.

[Aunt Donna]

I hate that feeling. You feel the need to cry but can't and when you do, you are like why did I do that? On the other hand when you can have good cry, sometimes it releases all the bottled up anxiety inside.

[shaggy dog]

I'm sorry your sad and frustrated. I don't think your friends should be making fun of you. I hope you find the help and support you need through these forums. shaggy

[ECHOES]

If you are on antidepressant medication, it could be causing this.
It was this very reason that I went off Prozac.

It is so frustrating when it feels like a good cry would help, but it just isn't there.

[thine_self_untrue]

Ack! I feel like that ALL the time!! Like something just has to give before I break. Obviously, I haven't figured it out... but I want you to know I could relate to this post. I hope you find happiness and peace soon.

[shezbut]

Numbness is a known effect of clinical depression.

Sometimes people become overly emotional in their depression. That's not much fun either though

Numbness is feeling emotionally removed. Kind of adopting the, "Who cares?" perspective, which is a more dramatic automatic thought that depression brings up.

I'd recommend talking with your doctor. He or she will probably send you to a T, but the doc can decide if medicines would be worth a shot ~ and which might work well for you. ((Best wishes))

[Skully]

I am so sorry you feel the way you do. I have had a rough couple of days myself. I am sad yet I cannot cry about it. Sometimes being able to cry will help you get it out of your system and feel better. It is very hard when you can't cry. Please know you are not alone in this.

[jen29]

Sorry you are hurting.
For me i will not allow myself to cry.
I hope that the tears will flow for you and you will find some relief.
Take care of yourself.
Hugs,
Jen

[psjeff]

I think sometimes it's hard to express our feelings and when the people around us don't understand that doesn't make it any easier. Who said crying is the answer anyway? what is the right way to feel when we are sad?

Originally Posted by BatsAndButterflies

I've been so frustrated lately and just plain sad... I don't really like talking about my feelings and stuff to my friends... they joke around saying i'm gonna explode one day from just repressing crap. I try to just let it out and cry, but I can't just let myself cry for some reason... It just won't come. And if I do cry I feel stupid.

[Rohag]

Hi, BatsAndButterflies! Just checking in here as another individual who is mostly numb and cannot usually cry.

[BatsAndButterflies]

I hate it... and it's like stupid bad news keeps piling up. And I just keep having to forget about it. It makes me feel even crappier though...

[shezbut]

I hate it... and it's like stupid bad news keeps piling up. And I just keep having to forget about it. It makes me feel even crappier though...

BatsAndButterflies,

These thoughts and emotions are piling up, waiting for you to deal with them. Just forgetting about it isn't working ~ as it makes you feel even worse.

While the news may seem trivial or stupid to you on some level, talking about these issues should be some relief. You may want to write a list of all the things flashing into your head. If those thoughts continue to come up after you've written a brief list, define the emotions that the thoughts bring up.

For example, pretend: 1.) My brother's dog, Oscar, died. ~ I wasn't close at all to Oscar, but it brings up deep sadness and hopelessness....(feeling goes on)... Oscar's death reminds me of how fragile life is at times. I wonder why evil things live on, yet innocent and loving things suffer. Why? Life is so unfair!

Thoughts like these commonly bring on other thoughts and emotions, like anger, anxiety, guilt, and self-hate.

Hope that this made some sense to you. A list could really help you understand exactly what's bothering you and begin to understand why these thoughts and feelings won't go away. Talking about those things with an impartial 3rd party, like a therapist, can help you work though them.

Very best wishes to you!

[BatsAndButterflies]

Ill try it... I used to try writing in my journal every day, but then decided it was bad enough with let downs and writing it was just like reliving it so I stopped

[shezbut]

Don't forget to use the journal to work through the feelings. To gain a better understanding of where these feelings are coming from and sharing those thoughts & experiences with a T.

[BatsAndButterflies]

I don't have a T. I would but I'm just not comfortable with that.

[BatsAndButterflies]

Definitely started bawling today randomly after I realized I have one full day of high school left and how much I am going to miss my friends in band and how much I am gonna miss performing with them... it kinda started out with me hyperventilating, but I got a good cry in there and I feel better now... still sad, but I feel a little better.

[shezbut]

Sometimes, letting those emotions out can be enough. Not always though.

Do you have any close friends that you ever share tears with? Or family? Do you trust anyone that you know enough to share the things on your mind?

There are professional therapists attached to this site, to which some people do talk with. Personally, I am not comfortable with that idea. I think that misunderstandings could easily occur. It would be tough to say things the way that I feel them. But, that's my personal opinion. Anyway, that is also an option for you if you have the money & are willing to give the online therapy a shot.

My best advice would be for you to take some deep breaths. Relax and frequently remind yourself that your life isn't ending. These people can still be a part of your life. Your great interest in playing music can grow. Your world will grow bigger. Close friends will still be a part of your life, but you'll add some new ones as your continue to grow in life. It is okay. Repeat that you are just fine ~ you are going to be okay.

((hugs)) to you!

[BatsAndButterflies]

I close friends that feel comfortable sharing tears with me, but I don't... I'm not really into online therapy either... I'm trying to just relax.

Thank You. ((hugs))

[SophiaG]

Originally Posted by BatsAndButterflies

I close friends that feel comfortable sharing tears with me, but I don't... I'm not really into online therapy either... I'm trying to just relax.

Thank You. ((hugs))

So youre more into being so depressed you cant cry? o_o

[BatsAndButterflies]

You have a point... I'm working on it though. I've gotten so much better this week. I've started talking to certain friends that I can relate to.

Good for you, BatsAndButterflies. Keep it up and keep us posted.