[SueA]

I have always felt sooo alone... like I'm the only one that ever felt the way I do. Had a really crappy day but at least I have this to go to and didn't loose it as bad as I usually do. You are all so dear to me. Im not much of a communicator, or able to put into words exactly how I feel. Reading whats posted here and the responces help me to better understand myself. Thank you.
I cant afford a T.. or meds.. I just try to get through each day and it keeps getting harder. I have lost intrest in everything.. I do make it into work but keep hoping that something would fall out of the sky and crush me before I get there. I try so hard and no one even notices me or the work I do. I'm not a smart person can only read on about a 4th grade level. and in my mid 50's I know it wont get any better. Where I work is just like it was in high school,,, you have the cheer leaders the jocks the cool kids and the outcasts.. I'm still and aways have been the outcast. I bealive in God and feel like even he dosn't care about me.

[palmdalegirl]

Originally Posted by SueA

I have always felt sooo alone... like I'm the only one that ever felt the way I do. Had a really crappy day but at least I have this to go to and didn't loose it as bad as I usually do. You are all so dear to me. Im not much of a communicator, or able to put into words exactly how I feel. Reading whats posted here and the responces help me to better understand myself. Thank you.
I cant afford a T.. or meds.. I just try to get through each day and it keeps getting harder. I have lost intrest in everything.. I do make it into work but keep hoping that something would fall out of the sky and crush me before I get there. I try so hard and no one even notices me or the work I do. I'm not a smart person can only read on about a 4th grade level. and in my mid 50's I know it wont get any better. Where I work is just like it was in high school,,, you have the cheer leaders the jocks the cool kids and the outcasts.. I'm still and aways have been the outcast. I bealive in God and feel like even he dosn't care about me.

Hi. I'm so sorry you are hurting. If it's any consolation, I am in the same boat you are. I am 45, been struggling my whole life, and everytime something good happens, it disappears. I sometimes struggle with why God doesn't see me or help me. I believe. I pray. I give to others. I have come to accept the fact that we are all blessed in our own special way....even if it means we ache with loneliness everyday and watch others dreams come true. I used to hate watching people so happy, but not anymore. I am happy for them, because I wouldn't want anybody to have to be like me. If you ever need a friend...I am here.

[SophiaG]

Originally Posted by SueA

I bealive in God and feel like even he dosn't care about me.

See, this is the key, you may feel like God doesnt care about you but he does.

Have you ever thought about going to an Emotions Anonymous meeting?

[palmdalegirl]

Originally Posted by SophiaG

See, this is the key, you may feel like God doesnt care about you but he does.

Have you ever thought about going to an Emotions Anonymous meeting?

Is there such a meeting??? I would go to one.

[SophiaG]

http://www.emotionsanonymous.org/

hopefully there is a meeting near you

Hello, SueA. Here are a couple sites that may help you find professional help:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=117
http://211.org/
http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?Sec...iateFinder.cfm

You might also talk to hospitals or clinics about support groups.

You are a valuable member of this Community. I hope you can get some help and find some friends.

Good luck.

[SueA]

Originally Posted by SophiaG

See, this is the key, you may feel like God doesnt care about you but he does.

Have you ever thought about going to an Emotions Anonymous meeting?

OMG i never heard of that is there really such a group?