[weird artist]

Feeling really down today. My new housemate has to move out because she can't get any help with money living here. I can't tell my other half I want to do something stupid, cuz he would either over-react or worry, and I don't want to put him through that. I can't speak to my therapist cuz she is away til 2nd July. My increased dose of Effexor/Venlefaxine doesnt seem to be working after 6-7weeks. I think I'm falling back down the spiral of self denial/dispair/harm. Seriously considering finding out the requirements for getting booked in to my local mental health unit to save a crisis.

Sorry if Iv brought anyone down.

[Rohag]

Hello, Weird Artist! I see how difficult things are for you now. Yes, take what steps you need to remain safe.

How is your young one? How goes the illustration and art?

[jacq10]

((((((((artist))))))))))

That doesn't sound like a good situation Are there any local drop-in places that you can go to?

[wottesworthgurl]

(((((((((((((((((((((artist)))))))))))))))))))) much love for you, I was in the chat earlier and hope you found all the answers you were/are looking for.

[weird artist]

well feeling ok this morning, until I got a bill for 196 pounds from the water company! No panicking about finding a job, Iv applied a few places but got no responses. ARG! So angry that I can't just hide from responsibility until I feel capable of dealing with it, but if I did that things would get worse. I can't use the phone to talk to the water bill cuz I'm scared of the damn thing, and Im smoking like a chimney behind my partners back. I have the GPs in a week or two, but I might not be able to wait that long. A lovely person advised me to pop into my local A&E and explain things to them if they get too much. Hopefully I will be able to do that if the time comes.

My little boy is fine, he doesnt even know anything is wrong, bless him.

I have just decided to take a year out of university to get better before I go back, but it means I loose all my loans&grants this year, so I have to get a job, so I can pay my rent etc. I know my folks have said they will help out if it gets too much, but I feel horrible asking them for money, and my mum makes it harder, one min she says its fine, she wants us to be ok, the next she is telling me off because she blames me for having to work. I cant win. Its all pants.

[Lisa Michelle]

I think you made a great decision in taking a year out of uni while you get better so then you can go back to it when you're more able, I really wish I had done that but I dropped out instead.

I think it might help to talk to your partner, I understand you don't want him to worry but I think that's the deal you make when you love someone, I'm sure he would WANT to help and support you.

It's good you have decided to go to the hospital if you need it. Good luck, I hope things improve x

[weird artist]

well feeling a bit better this evening, went a few hours on my own without doing anything stupid, so I'm ok for now at least. Tomorrow is another day, so hopefully things will continue to at least stay level.