Help me sort this out please.

I have been on a lot of meds for well over a year now. I have felt my depression get better. The way I feel now I am unclear about. I stayed in bed today until 12:00. I got up and sat in my recliner and this is as far as I have come. I have back pain right now, not horrid but enough to take a pill. I have laundry to fold, a blanket chest to refinish, cleaning to do. I also could be swimming or visiting with friends. I am in this chair with no desire to move. If I do move it might be back to bed. We have been a week without any kids, daughter is at camp doing counselor thing and she is the only one left. She comes home tomorrow. I also have a massive amount of paperwork to get caught up on and have not touched that. I could visit babies and get charged, but here I sit. Part of me thinks it's exhaustion. Someof the things I do everyday take a lot out of me. Maybe I am just resting. But I am worried that it is the depression. I want to just get up and start getting work done. Some weekends are very productive. This is not one of them. Am I depressed? Is it okay to be lazy? Should I force myself to go do something, anything?

wise,

we're gonna take a shot in the dark and guess exhaustion for you.

what makes us guess that? oh.........the myriad of posts over the past few months of the absolute stress and drama of life that you've been living through.

you've written about how you feel better when you are swimming. you've written about many things you do to help keep the depression from making headway.

from what you are writing it doesn't sound like depression to us. we think you are flat out pooped!

bed to chair back to bed. do it. rest. allow yourself to do so. one day can be a luxury when one is so used to pushing oneself to the extreme.

we vote for a sloth day for you.

if it becomes a pattern? then we'll look at the depression returning. k?

(((wisewoman)))

All I have for you is my love and empathy, I hope that is enough (((((((((((((((wise)))))))))))))))

With respect,
Fuzzy

my vote is for exhaustion. your past posts have reflected how much you've been doing. helping other people, helping your family, etc. you deserve a day, for yourself. one day isn't going to end the world. take a rest, dear........xoxox pat

I agree with the other wise ones before me. You get to laze around, recline, rest, nap, drowse, sleep, and then lay down to slumber and dream wonderful dreams.

You can imagine being a wonderfully relaxed cat. Cats get done what needs to be done, they can be alert and active, yet they also know how to just plain rest. How to stretch slowly and luxuriously and ponder pure air.

accomplishment for the day? I folded laundry and went grocery shopping. No food in house! Thanks a lot everyone, I do indeed need to know it's okay to be a vegetable.

It is very much okay to be a vegetable, I think I shall be a bright orange healthy pumpkin today. One that just sits there in all its pumpkin glory.

Folding laundry and grocery shopping is a lot right there at times, you truly now do get to rest.

if that is vegetable then what is only doing laundry and watering both front and back yard flowers and barrel plantings? what is lower than zucchini? rock? we always dug geology

warmly,
__zh who is somewhere between 6 to 8 on Mohr's scale but better than when we first began therapy T and pdoc both swear we're softening.....must be from all that vegging and imitating a rock lol

today, i've surfed internet and watched t.v. total vegetating day. i haven't even folded clothes....fixed myself a meal...and feed dogs and cats......it's okay to rest.

Went to return video and went swimming at friends pool. Very quick good swim. Also created in my mind a very inexpensive solution to a need for shelves upstairs in our cape with knee walls. Recycling is fun! Can't wait to see if I find the shelving materials for free. Then, I thought of a bed-side table idea. So, at least my mind is busy. My head really hurts and has for days and I keep forgetting to get allergy meds. Ouch! Hubby made dinner for me. Good stuff. So, just need to get my paperwork done tomorrow.

Well kids, I have had a head ache for days and sinus pressure. The head ache is severe. Face hurts. It finally (I know duh) occured to me that this is a sinus infection. Called the doc on call who is giving me an antibiotic. I have been taking my nasonex which helps a tiny bit. Maybe this will really help. Hate the head ache and no energy. As for not knowing if I am ill, old stuff, always ignored symptoms cause being sick meant abuse.

"As for not knowing if I am ill, old stuff, always ignored symptoms cause being sick meant abuse"

(((((( ww ))))))

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Wisewoman}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
rest and take care of yourself......my T says if all I want to do is lay around and sleep then take a day and do that and not feel guilty about it....he says taking care of me is number one...so there are days that I just sit in my rocking chair on laptop or watching tv and in my nightgown all day long...even take a long nap get up and hubby orders take out because I am in no mood to cook...so eat and head back to bed again....before telling my T about this I would beat myself up and feel guilty but now since he told me to do it and tell myself it is ok ...I no longer feel guilty when I do it....
hope that made sense....but anyways do what you need to do for you and take care of yourself...

Feeling alive at least. Hurt buy happenings here but it's not about me. Thanks for being respectful and kind. Means a lot.