[Fuzzybear]

I care!!



Stay safe,
Fuzzy

[Hope4me2]

I care too!!!!!!!

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))

[oksomaybeimnuts]

((((((((((((((Susan))))))))))))))))))

[Overcastbutclearing]

Hi, It's me. Just got back from my appt with my T.
I did have a very rough night. Had to call her at 12:30am as I was driving around after a fight with my gf and my thoughts going out of control...BUT>>>>>>
I listened to her. I went home. I went to my appt. this morning. It was a good appt. I know I have a lot of childhood work ahead of me...that is where a lot of my feelings of sadness and lonlieness come from.
I want to be alive.
I lived through my timelime because I choose LIFE!
I may have some spells from time to time.
I may still have a rough day this week.
And I need all the hugs and support you wonderful people offer.
But I am here...I am copeing. I am really trying to work on ME.
I even hugged my T after out session...and she hugged me back tight. That felt good.
I think it was all of your hugs you guys have sent me through the tangible hug of my T.
So, thank you.

I am going to work and fight to "keep on, keeping on!"

Susan

[__zh]

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I want to be alive.
I lived through my timelime because I choose LIFE!

I am going to work and fight to "keep on, keeping on!"

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we are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of you Susan!!!! Good job sweetie. (((((sj)))))

[Parker10]

((((((((((((((((((((((Susan)))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so glad you have made that CHOICE !
Lots and lots of folks here care about you, and will support you thru whatever you need to work on in T !!!

susan, you've made my heart so much lighter!! i'm going to skip through my day...and, of course, i'll send you HUGE hugs..love, pat

((((((((((sj)))))))))))
so proud of you!! we're here to keep supporting you this week.
w_i

[Overcastbutclearing]

((((-zh)))) (((fayerody))) (((fuzzybear))) (((parker10)))
(((oksomaybeiamnuts))) (((hopeforme2)))
I feel a sense of relief this morning. It was like I had my darkest hour last night while I was driving around.
I was alone and could have done anything...but I remember the day before when my T was very adamant in saying "I care about you, where you are and what you are doing!" And I took that memory and dialed her #. I was a little nervous because it was after midnight but ya know what she said to me this morning when we met at 9am...she said she was so proud of me because she knew it took a lot for me to call her so late and in the state I was in.
I guess I do have fight still left in me after all.
I think by making the time line I did 2 weeks ago I felt like I couldn't give up on it. I can be so stubborn and bullheaded.
But, maybe the time line was for other reasons. Maybe the fight last night with my gf was to show me that I just need relief in my head from things and that doesn't have to mean death.
I have the day off from work. I am going to enjoy the afternoon at the complex pool.
I thank everyone who has taken the time to listen, help me sort things out. And I thank you for still being there because my battle is still uphill.
Susan

[Hope4me2]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{sj}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
great job I am so proud of you!

[irish_angel]

**********BIG HUGS********* to be used when ever you need them.

PM if you ever need to talk, Im always around to listen

Take Care

[LadyDragus]

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I want to be alive.
I lived through my timelime because I choose LIFE!
Susan

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i have never been so proud of you for saying the words above..

I hear the angels singing and this dragon is doing a very happy dance right now with tears of joy running down her face when she saw this post made by all your freinds ...

I am so happy your appt went well and I am so happy you have chosen this path of life.. I will be here for you on this path and I will not falter off of it with you ..
We may both have rough days ahead but we can both make it.. all of us will ok..

Lots of love and kisses to you ok.

[Fuzzybear]

Hey there, just wanted you to know I am thinking of you!
Hang in there,
Shouldn't be here so back to hiding,
Fuzzy

[Overcastbutclearing]

I am hiding, kind of too.
I am embarrassed a little. I did make it through my time line of Aug 23rd but I am still feeling crappy and like I cannot control myself from time to time. My thoughts are still there about why I am alive...and then I think about sabotaging my life in other ways. Like quitting my really good job, or wrecking my new Sante Fe, or cutting myself all up. It is like I got all this support and I hear it all and yet my mind is still playing tricks on me.
So, I am embarrassed....
Sorry.

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((((((((((SJ))))))))))))))))))))))))

[SweetSunshine]

Sj~

Hon I hear ya on this one. I think deep down we know we deserve to have love and support and then this little gremlin comes along and says nooooooo , you should be ashamed of yourself, your worthless, you mean nothing to others, you have no friends. AND ITS ALL UNTRUE!!!!!!!!! We should be proud of ourselves cause we have survived our disorders! We are cherished! WE are LOVED! And I got more friends in real life and online than I can count on six hands! WOW! And I Know that you do too Sweetie! Isnt it a great feeling to know that? To know that there are people who care about you and would do anything for you? I just think that is awsome! How lucky can we be? Hold that head up high there Girlfriend! Get that nose in the air , breath deeply and take it all in , cause its yours to have! Life is a wonderful thing if we can just accept it as freely as its given to us!AND NO I AM NOT HIGH on anything but LIFE! LOL. Love ya hon. Take care ok?

Hugz~
Bethy

[LadyDragus]

There is not need to be ambarassed..
You made it past the timeline because you are loved and you want to live..

That is why..

love you.

hugs and kisses..
lady D.