[invisigirl]

Life feels like a long unending string of 'one of those days'...

One of those days where life feels like it's trying to crush me in spite of me fighting so hard to stay on top of it. Where every situation feels so discouraging that I don't even want to deal with it. I want to give up, run away, hide, never come out.. I've been working hard on several things in my life, partly to help ease my depression and improve my quality of life. But when I make no progress despite the time and effort I put into it, it makes me feel so discouraged that I don't want to try anymore and that just makes me more depressed.

I'm tired of feeling like depression is kicking my *****. I want to kick depression's *****.

[Elana05]

Originally Posted by invisigirl

Life feels like a long unending string of 'one of those days'...

One of those days where life feels like it's trying to crush me in spite of me fighting so hard to stay on top of it. Where every situation feels so discouraging that I don't even want to deal with it. I want to give up, run away, hide, never come out.. I've been working hard on several things in my life, partly to help ease my depression and improve my quality of life. But when I make no progress despite the time and effort I put into it, it makes me feel so discouraged that I don't want to try anymore and that just makes me more depressed.

I'm tired of feeling like depression is kicking my *****. I want to kick depression's *****.

Hi invisigirl,

I know just how you feel. Just yesterday I told my T I was in a boxing match with depression. I really hope you begin to feel better. I bet you are making progress even though it doesn't feel that way. That's usually how it is. Are you seeing a therapist and or taking anything for the depression?
Did something specific happen that you would like to post about here? Sending good thoughts your way.

[owen2110]

Keep on trying different things!!! Something is bound to work sooner or later.

[invisigirl]

No therapist. No meds. I've been exercising a lot more, and that has helped a lot. But I still have days that are just crappy regardless. I have contemplated therapy, but we have no car, so if I did go I would be stuck with the ones closest to home. Which is a bummer since I've had some good recs from people who have similar problems to me and have had good success, but their Ts are on the other side of town.

Anyhow.

I have a long laundry list of things that contribute to my depression. Financial stress, parenting stress, marriage stress, childhood trauma.. Sometimes it feels like nothing is right with my life. I have had problems with depression since childhood. My husband also happens to be Bipolar.

A boxing match.. very much like that. Sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down.